Had enough and fed up!!!!!

shezza

hi all
First of all i want to apologise for not writing in for a while .
I dont really know where to start but i am feeling very low. I have muscular rheumatism and take Diclofenac and Amitrypyline to help with the pain.
I recently started with high blood pressure and was given Rampiril and Simvastatin for high chlorestral and the dr asked me to go for a ECG.
I went for the ECG and the dr read my report and said it shows that i may have had slight heart attack and she referred me to see a heart specialist.The dr also prescribed me a Aspirin to take every morning.
I went to see the cardiologist she gave me a ECG again and she said that my heart appeared to be fine and that i needed to lose weight to ease pressure on my heart.She prescribed me a beta blocker to take to calm my heart beat down ,it was 195/125 .She also asked me to go for a heart scan to confirm that my heart was ok and then i could do exercises.
I am currently seeing a health trainer and with their guidance i have managed to lose 1 and a half stone due to healthy eating.
They have advised me to do steady walks and gradually build up the walks and do longer ,i was doing really well until i woke up last Weds feeling pain in my upper limbs .The pain then progressed to other joints and by thurs i was really in a lot of pain and very tired and slept from thurs to Sat apart from waking up to have medication.
I have been to see a new Health Trainer this morning (the 3rd one in 3 months) and she was asking me about my walking and exercising and i told her about having been so tired etc when in pain that it had taken me all my time to do small things and that i hadnt even thought about walking .She said that the next step is to go to a Gym (when i am ready to )and this point i broke down in tears .i told her i am terrifed of going to the gym whilst in pain even thou i know its best for me to go .
The dr has given me stronger pain killers but they make me feel really dizzy and light headed so i only take them when i really need to ,they also make me feel tired which means then that i dont feel like exercising.The dr has agreed that it will be good for me to go to gym and i do want to go but because condition is variable
i dont know how i will be on the day of the gym and im scard they will think im "putting it on "so that i dont have to do anything.
My health trainer wanted me to go this Thurs but i have to go and see gynae cos of irregular and heavy periods and am having camera and maybe coil and have to rest 24 hours after having had camera .
I really dont think unless someone themselves goes thru stuff they dont understand how anyone feels for E.g health Trainer told me on good days i should be able to find time to exercise a couple of mins a day and i was thinking some days i can be in bed most of the week feeling rough and last thing on my mind is exercise ...just to get myself a cup of coffee is an achievement !
Im sorry i had had a moan but it has really got to me and i am down about it all.
Thanks for taking the time to read this ...Take care everyone ...Sheila

woodbon

Hello Shella, You'r having a really hard time of it, I can tell just by reading your post. I really wish that I could offer you a majic pill to put everything right.

Know one can know exactly how someone else is feeling, but we can guess. It must have been frightening when 'a heaer attack was mentioned, its my own nightmare, as heart disease is in family big time. Even so, a minor heart attack can be a warning that things need to change. This happedned to my mother in law. She had one major attack in her forties, and changed some bad habits and lived to be 80!

Do you have a physio at your hospital, who could go through exercises with you, measureing your heart and fitness level, so that you would know were you stand with that aspect. They may give you confidence about going to the gym. To me you sound depressed - which isn't strange - with the worries you have. That alone will make you fell worn out and tired :? .

Do you have a sympathetic GP or nurse, that you could tell all this to as you may find that helpful and they may have a few suggestions worth thinking about.

I'm sorry, I can't be more helpful. Love Sue.

marief

hi

sorry to hear your feeling so bad ,have you tried hydro therapy
because its in a heated pool its nicer to your joint and the warm water helps relax you .
you do exerses in the water because its none weight parring its kinder to you body and joints .

you should speak to you doctor and see if you have a hospital that has hydro pool local to you .

good luck

marie

denpen

Hi Sheila
Your having a rough time of it arnt you, I completely understand where you are coming from I have just seen a cardiologist myself because I too have had high blood pressure and chest pain my ECG was OK but I am having a nuclear heart scan and it includes a stress test on the treadmill and I am worried about the excercise because of OA in my hip, I have a cross trainer at home and have just brought it out and dusted the cobwebs off it to try to build up my strength ready for the test but at the moment I am in too much pain to use it, so now I am worried about the scan, I know that they can give me a injection to cause the stress to my heart which I dont really want but now I think that I will have to have that instead of the treadmill. You have done really well to lose the weight I wish I could lose some and excercise is supposed to be so good for you and keep you moving but its very difficult to excercise when you are in pain isnt it. Good luck with it all and try to keep positive.
Denise.

lindalegs

Well Sheila, first of all a big pat on the back for you for losing all that weight - that's no small achievement.

I agree with Sue you are low and need to talk to your GP to see if they can give you something to help lift your spirits. Arthritis and depression do go hand in hand along with your other problems anyone would feel miserable...... and another vicious circle is the pain sending you to bed because although rest is good you have to do a bit and then rest in order to keep your joints moving and muscle support good.

Try to give yourself a small, achieveable goal a day, even if it is making a cup of coffee, please don't let arthur win, you have to fight this for your own sake.

Here're some posies to brighten your day.



Luv Legs

frogmorton

Hi Sheila
I just wanted to say congratulations for losing one and a half stone despite all you are going through :shock: That is an amazing acheivement.
The others have said what I would say about yor options, but you take care from me
Toni x

mistywillow

shezza wrote:

hi all
First of all i want to apologise for not writing in for a while .
I dont really know where to start but i am feeling very low. I have muscular rheumatism and take Diclofenac and Amitrypyline to help with the pain.
I recently started with high blood pressure and was given Rampiril and Simvastatin for high chlorestral and the dr asked me to go for a ECG.
I went for the ECG and the dr read my report and said it shows that i may have had slight heart attack and she referred me to see a heart specialist.The dr also prescribed me a Aspirin to take every morning.
I went to see the cardiologist she gave me a ECG again and she said that my heart appeared to be fine and that i needed to lose weight to ease pressure on my heart.She prescribed me a beta blocker to take to calm my heart beat down ,it was 195/125 .She also asked me to go for a heart scan to confirm that my heart was ok and then i could do exercises.
I am currently seeing a health trainer and with their guidance i have managed to lose 1 and a half stone due to healthy eating.
They have advised me to do steady walks and gradually build up the walks and do longer ,i was doing really well until i woke up last Weds feeling pain in my upper limbs .The pain then progressed to other joints and by thurs i was really in a lot of pain and very tired and slept from thurs to Sat apart from waking up to have medication.
I have been to see a new Health Trainer this morning (the 3rd one in 3 months) and she was asking me about my walking and exercising and i told her about having been so tired etc when in pain that it had taken me all my time to do small things and that i hadnt even thought about walking .She said that the next step is to go to a Gym (when i am ready to )and this point i broke down in tears .i told her i am terrifed of going to the gym whilst in pain even thou i know its best for me to go .
The dr has given me stronger pain killers but they make me feel really dizzy and light headed so i only take them when i really need to ,they also make me feel tired which means then that i dont feel like exercising.The dr has agreed that it will be good for me to go to gym and i do want to go but because condition is variable
i dont know how i will be on the day of the gym and im scard they will think im "putting it on "so that i dont have to do anything.
My health trainer wanted me to go this Thurs but i have to go and see gynae cos of irregular and heavy periods and am having camera and maybe coil and have to rest 24 hours after having had camera .
I really dont think unless someone themselves goes thru stuff they dont understand how anyone feels for E.g health Trainer told me on good days i should be able to find time to exercise a couple of mins a day and i was thinking some days i can be in bed most of the week feeling rough and last thing on my mind is exercise ...just to get myself a cup of coffee is an achievement !
Im sorry i had had a moan but it has really got to me and i am down about it all.
Thanks for taking the time to read this ...Take care everyone ...Sheila

Hi Shelia
You sound like you are just completely overwhelmed with it all, and you certainly have enough going on at the moment to make you feel like that. I think its always a difficult balance between resting and exercise with arthritis, as both are necessary. Its tempting to just want to go to bed and stay there when you are in pain and miserable and just want the world to go away and leave you alone. I agree with the others that a trip to your GP to perhaps get them to prescribe some antidepressents may help. Just to give you a bit of a lift and then the rest will follow. With regard to being afraid of the gym, remember no one will force you to do anything. You are in charge of your body and you know how much you are able to do. One point though, sometimes doing a little gentle exercise and stretching, even though it might hurt a bit at first can sometimes make things better in the long run by easing out achy muscles and mobilising stiff joints. Immobility in itself can cause pain so perhaps you can work out a gentle list of stretching and mobilising exercises, with your health trainer that you can do each morning when you first get out of bed that might ease you into your day. From then you could gradually build it up until you feel ready to go to the gym. (remember, that is only a place of exercise. What you actually do there can still be very gentle and you control what you actually do)

Hope this helps and that things become easier for you soon.
Gillx

joyful164

Hello Shezza

You really are going through the mill and I think you are being very brave. Welldone losing the weight. I do wish I could. I think everyone has given sound advice and think I might follow that road myself because I have very high blood pressure. New meds have made my feet and legs balloon terribly.

Wish you all the best and look forward to hearing that you have lost another stone

joyful