Got xray results back - oh dear!

josiec

Hi all, Sorry haven't been around for a few days-couldn't face it to be honest. I got the results of my hip xray back this week, and whilst it wasn't exactly unexpected, it wasn't what I wanted to hear. I have got arthritic damage in my hip, osteo not inflammatory though, the dr said that if they didn't get on with fusing my foot it would certainly make my hip deteriorate quicker. He is doing me a report to take to my next orthopaedic appointment in Nov, as it's a different hospital. I don't know what to do with my little self at the moment. I feel angry, partly because I wonder if my foot hadn't been left my hip might not be so bad, but I know that they won't fuse it unnecessarily and it's only been suggested this year, so in the grand scheme of things it can't have made much difference. I am frightened how long my hip will last-I'm only just 32. Sorry this isn't more cheerful, but I just can't do it at the moment. Hope you are all okay, Josie

elnafinn

Dear Josie

I am sorry to read your message just now. I can well understand that you feel angry and probably tearful about the situation.

I agree with you the suggestion of fusion would not be made if it was not necessary but I can well understand too the doubts in your mind about the state of your hip if you had had something done sooner.

You are no age either, a youngster, not much older than my own daughter. I wish I could offer some sound advice/help but I can offer you sympathy and I am sending that to you by the bucketload now.

I know what you mean about not feeling like messaging on here sometime but I am pleased that you have done, because a problem shared is a problem halved even if there is no magic answer.

I am sending you cyber gentle hugs and as I said loads of sympathy vibes and hope you feel able to call in again soon. Until then,

Lots of love
Elna x

skezier

Hi Josie,

I am sorry you got the result you didn't want and its bound to get you down but you will also came back up again soon. Its one thing to think you have something but when they say you are right it takes away that small hope you were wrong.

I really hope they get on and do that foot as to be more even on you feet will help you hip.

I wish I could do or say something to really help you but I think all I can do is promise you the foot opp will be ok and the hips may be slow in their progress. A ((( ))) and love Cris x

woodbon

Hello Josie,
I'm so sorry that your news isn't better. It must be hard for you to except having your foor fused and the problem with you hip. It must have been a big shock for you, as I think however well we think we are prepared for things like this, the truth is still shocking.
All I can do is send you lots of love and best wishes. You are a kind, good person who always has something useful to say to others, and strong, that I'm sure that strength will help you through the coming days. Take good care of yourself,
Lots of love and hugs, Sue (((((((xxx))))))

josiec

Aw, thank you for your kind words! (Makes me want to cry!) I know you are right, I've felt like this before after news, and it will go-sometimes I fight too much against how I am feeling I think rather than just acknowledging and accepting how I feel. I feel guilty when others have much worse, but know I should allow myself these feelings. I am alternating between wanting to cry and scream-wish didn't cry at work though, it isn't a good look! :shock: Will get there, though-keep your fingers crossed for that appointment in November! Many thanks again, Josie x

eckstardeluxe

Hello Josie.

No wonder you are feeling a little down. I like you was 32 at my diagnosis, very frightening, like you I was thinking if I'm this bad now what happens when I'm really old? How bad will things be?

The main thing is though at least you know now what's been bothering you. You can get the help and answers you need and find out the most you can about your illness.

I hope you and your care givers can find a solution to everything and get you the best quality of life you can. It's hard work and there will still be times down the road you find yourself getting down again but every time is less than before and you learn from it.

Take care

Eck
xxx

angel1

Josie hello,

So sorry you`ve been given this unwelcome - though not totally unexpected - news.

For the next little while, just be kind to yourself, and let all the emotions out. Fear, anger, tears etc., Just go with them. Don`t think too far ahead. Things will fall into perspective, and when you`re ready, you will start to accept them.

In the meantime, know that we are here for you......Much love.....Ange.