Down AGA|IN

bionic

Sorry but have come on here to have a moan as no one at home and if they were I can't talk to them at the moment. This spate of depression just wont lift it's been weeks now, perhaps I should go back to doc but so reluctant as they dont listen and dont want to know even though I have a history of it and have been on anti depressants for years now. I just dont know what to do with myself , sometimes I want to hurt myself to make people listen and take notice.

Sorry

Take care

Rosie x

elnafinn

Dear Rosie

I am so sorry to read your message. You have indeed been down for a long, long time. Too long. I remember when you were on the forum and you were not like this. It makes me very sad to read all your posts recently and not so recently, where you are not in a steady frame of mind.

If you feel that your gp does not listen why not go and see another gp at your surgery? Would it help if you were to have some councelling? I think it may as you really do need to talk and talk to someone, probably a third party.

I do feel that you need much more than just to be issued pills. That does not appear to be working on its own but combined with some therapy I am sure you can become of lighter mood again and feel more content with yourself and life in general.

I do hope that you make that step and ask for help.

Lots of love and hugs
Elna x(())

carol101

Ah Rosie my love.

I do believe we haven't met so firstly, Hello

I have just this week started my 1st ever course of anti depressents but you certainly sound like you need a big hug

Do you have anyone who can go to the Dr with you? I always take my hubby, i feel if there's two of you the Dr is more forced to listen plus they can point out things that you may have forgotten to mention.

As Elna said, maybe it's time you saw a counselor, but again try and take somebody with you.

You will get through this Rosie, you have loads of friends on here as i found out during my darkest moments and we are always here.




Carol XX

woodbon

Hello,
I'm sorry you feel so down. It might really help you to go and see the doctor. Sometimes just talking gets things off your chest. Last week, when I was going down with this bug, I felt so depressed, so I sat and typed out all the negative thoughts I had, how badly treated and misunderstood I was. I sat here crying and typing everything that got me down, things from years ago! Then I read it through, and it was so full of self pity and really nasty feelings that I'd been holding on to.
I had to get rid of it, so I set fire to all 5 sheets of paper, (in the wood burning stove, quite safe!) :shock: and somehow I felt a lot better and could see the funny side of a lot of the niggles.

Don't know why I did it but just felt so sorry for myself, I wanted to get it out in the open. :shock:

I hope you soon feel brighter. You've had a shock when you found out about the other hip, its boud have an effect on you.
Take care, love Sue

debatat

Sorry you are feeling so down, you have already been given good suggestions, I hope you feel brighter soon.

Deb x

helpline_team

Dear Bionic,

I'm going to send you a private message from us at Helplines

Guy

frogmorton

Hi Rosie
I am so sorry to read your post.
You sound as though you feel so alone. GPs can sometimes seem to be not listening, but if you feel so bad you are thinking about harming yourself - you have to go back
Rember too there is always the samaritans who will listen to you day or night.
I do hope you feel a teeny bit better today and that all these replies help you to beleive you are not alone. we are here to support you.
Love
Toni x

joyful164

Bionic
I can only reiterate everyones elses words of advice and, of course, you have the helpline behind you.

I'm sure you will get the help and advise you need

So, just a big hug
and hang on in there. Things will be fine.
joy

c4thyg

Rosie,

I'm sorry I didn't reply straight away. I started to write to you as soon as you posted but couldn't finish as my daughter was playing up. I'm so glad that others have replied quickly though as you need to hear some kind supportive words at times like this.

I agree that you need to speak to someone soon and to get some help. They guys here of course are great but you need someone you can physically talk to and who can give you a big hug. I've been on antidepressants in the past and I've had counselling this year. I actually did self-harm just to break the cycle. My counsellor was great and I got through it with her help and without the need for pills. Even the first session was a great help as knowing that you can talk honestly and not worry about offending anyone is a huge relief. You can be completely honest with us but in person can bring so much more.

I wish that I could do more to help you. I see that the helpteam have already contacted you so I hope that they have been able to offer support and advice. Please please please go and see your Dr and ask for help. If it helps take someone with you, although if you are like me and it's better to see the Dr alone, have someone in the waiting room ready to take you home.

I hope that you are feeling better today and I'm thinking of you.
Take care and big hugz, Cathy