I have had rheumatoid arthritis for 14 years and I'm getting to the end of my tether with pain and fatigue. I really struggle going to work and don't think I'm much use as an employee because I have so much time off sick and rely too much on my colleagues. Work is really supportive but secretly they must hate me!
I'm currently in the 3rd week of 3 weeks sick and am dreading next week as I don't know how I'll cope. Trouble is I'm only 45 and I'll-health retirement rules are so tight now. I did reduce hours and grade 10 years ago on grounds of ill-health but wrote a letter (not computerised then) and don't know how to find out if it's on file without rocking the boat with my boss. To afford retirement I'd need the full pension which means they'd have to say I'm unlikely to get another job before 65. I can't see who'd have me, but it depends whether they'd agree!
I spend all my non-working time recovering from work and don't see how I can carry on lik this.
Sorry for ramble - stream of consciousness - but any suggestions about what to do??