what a s**tty day!

cthornley

I had my hospital appointment today to find out what my MRI found with my knee

I fell last May and smashed my knee into a concrete floor ....once the bruising and massive bursa finally faded I still had a very painful knee with a small incredibly painful lump

well after much pulling and pushing me about (does this hurt?....owwww YES both my hip & my knee!!!!) it isn't good news in the fact that they are not sure they can do much about it and I may have to live with it

Apparently the ligaments are still sprained and bruised after 10months and are thickened which is causing the pain along with increased inflammation from the RA (which is worse than the other one). Which is possibly why its not really healing ...no explanation of what the lump is mind :roll:

He said I need to give it time and talk to my rheumy upping my RA meds (which realistically means I no longer get to opt of of anti - tnf , which i've been avoiding) and try some physio which won't help with the pain but should improve my range of movement. If the RA improves it might allow the knee to heal a bit but they don't know as it seems that the damage is making the RA worse and the RA isn't letting the damage heal :???:

I knew this might be the result but I was hoping that they'd be able to fix it i'm truly sick of being in pain and all this additional pain is wearing me down......I'd promised myself that I wouldn't cry but I walked straight out and got in my car and managed a whole 2seconds before I broke down.

It was awful because I then had to go straight from there to the building site to talk to my contractors and then on to the office. I hope that I managed to look more composed than I felt because I felt like I just wanted to crumble

I'm now exhausted from holding myself together and the only person whose given me any much desired sympathy is a 2yr old who has decided as mummy went to the hospital today that the doctor must have kissed it better and my knee is now fixed :roll:

I think I'm now off to break my self imposed week off alcohol and drown my sorrows in glass of something

A very fed up Chrissie

spacey

hi, it sounds like today really was pants for you. It is crushing to hear bad news such as there is not much they can do for you. I hope that this is not the case and that you will get some relief from the pain. I think the world of a 2 year old is perfect and lovely x

Poppyg1rl

How awful, I do feel for you, maybe once you start the new meds the RA might settle down and let your poor knee heal? ever the optimist me!... have to be sometimes though.
Thinking of you, enjoy your tipple and plenty of your 2yr olds cuddles should help.
Poppy X

need me bed

Oh Chrissy, What a sh1t day hun. I'm sending big gentle hugs your way. I have had a quite a sh1tty day today but nowhere near the stress of yours. woke up late fell over cat, :roll: missed brekky and coffee due to time scales and lateness, forgot coat, got wet in rain, :x went to go get nails done did tour of the town due to massive road works, petrol light came on in car.... got nails done, got petrol, had to wait 20 mins to get out of the garage, got to work, forgot to buy coffee in tesco's which is what i went in there for in the first place. :roll: work was a nightmare more so then usual, full of pain, headache stressed to the heavens, hands got sore, pain from elbow to little finger (from working too hard i suspect lol) the day just dragged and dragged and then dragged some more so i'm knackered and fed up now, might join you in a small bevvie so you aren't drinking alone petal. :P

Hope you get summat sorted with that knee soon. Kepp ya chin up mate smile and make the buggers wonder what you're up to

love n hugs

NMB

xxxxxx

skezier

Hi Chrissy,

Oh that's a bad day flower. Ligaments are horribly bad at healing but they still can or maybe they will be able to do some shortening on them once the ra is better controlled?

Its a horrible circle, they ra out of control making the ligaments unable to heal and the ligaments pulling things so making the ra worse. I so hoe your rumo will be able to bring it under control for you soon. When is your appointment to see them>? I hope they wont keep you waiting too long for that.

I am sorry and also that you are not finding too much support except from your little lad. Fingers crossed it will slowly improve cus they can do in time. Fingers crossed for you and so may hopes tomorrow will feel a better day. Cris x

ironic

Hi Chrissie,
Yes I remember you falling and I am sorry to hear that it has had such a devastating effect after all this time. It sounds like a vicious circle for you. Ligaments do take a long time to settle but that is ridiculous. It might not be a bad idea to try the Physio route as they may have a better idea as to how to give you some relief from the constant pain.
This on top of your work pressure, no wonder you are feeling down. I hope you get lots of cuddles from your 2 yr old this weekend.
Gentle hugs,
Lv, Ix

stickywicket

You are absolutely correct – that is one extremely sh-tty situation, especially as you are a young Mum with a job. So much of this disease consists of adapting to change but maybe you don’t need to give up on this one just yet. I wish I had a £5 for every time I’ve gone to the doc or rheumatologist expecting what – to me – was the worst only to discover there was a different, more palatable, option. The uncertainty is horrible but it might be that with time things will improve.

If I were in your shoes I’d be making a list of everything I wanted to ask before heading down to whichever medic you feel best able to help.

Meanwhile, keep taking the cuddles as often as necessary. Thank God that’s one successful treatment you can’t overdose on. As for falling off the wagon – me too. Out with friends last night. Only regret it minimally this morning.

frogmorton

Oh Crissie

I am so sorry I missed this and taht you are suffering so much still :sad:

This is pants :sad:

I love your darling child for caring about your knee. Her own experience will be of bumps which heal in a matter of days and mummy can fix so I love her!!

I am so sorry you had no better news, but will leave the suggestions to the others.

I want to say l think you were REALLY brave and am 100% certain you looked totally compposed and professional to the contractors when you got there. there is no better actor than a person with arthritis

I hope you are doing better now.

Love and hugs

toni xx

cthornley

Thanks everybody

I'm still a bit down , and those of you have heard me post before about my husband will not be surprised to hear I got little sympathy from that corner. "Well I told you not to get your hopes up" :shock:

I have however had a cuddle filled weekend as my little boy has been poorly all weekend and when he's not well only mummy will do. We have watched Despicable Me which gave us more than a few proper belly laughs

I guess we'll just have to see how it goes, I've coped all this time with RA whats a bit more mind numbing pain eh?

thanks again
Chrissie

dreamdaisy

When the cheque arrives from the insurance people for his stolen skis, hide it for a little while. Let's see how he likes that.

You will overcome this, of that I have no doubt. What I cannot foretell is exactly when this will happen. DD

mp1952

Sorry you are having a rough time chrissy... The anti tnf could be a big help but i know it's a big step to take.


Take care

Marion x

julie47

Hi chrissie
I have been awol for a few days so only just responding .sorry.
I am sorry that you are having such a roucgh time at the moment it won't be easy being a mum to a small child i know.
I hope you are feeling a little more positive today, and that your little boy
is also feeling much better.
Cuddles from children......you can't beat it. My daughter came yesterday 23 in a few weeks and I still have a cuddle.......It makes my day.
I hope the new treatment helps. I will cross my fingers (in a fashion)
Take care
Juliepf x