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nearlybionic
nearlybionic Member Posts: 1,899
edited 16. Mar 2011, 15:11 in Living with Arthritis archive
Hi
I am feeling really low at the moment, not sleeping, which makes the days worse. I burst in to tears in town when I had to speak to someone, (very embarassing). I am suffering with my hips and back and my stupid hands won`t do what they are told. My daughter is ill with a chest infection and I couldn`t open a medicine bottle! She had to try to do it herself, poor thing. I feel useless, and am not looking forward to work tomorrow as I am working in a different office for a few days which involves more driving too.
Ok rant over!
Thanks for listening
NB

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  • skezier
    skezier Member Posts: 11,333
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Hi Nearly,

    really sorry you are having such a bad day and wish i knew an answer but leaving you a ((((( ))))) and i hope you at least get some decent sleep and your daughter is well again soon. Cris xx
  • julie47
    julie47 Member Posts: 6,041
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Hi nearly

    sending a (((((()))))) and a cup of tea.....hoping that it makes you feel better.

    Sorrry you are having a rough time at the moment, not having enough sleep doesn't help so no wonder you are ready to burst in to tears.

    I hope tomorrow things are better for you and that your daughter feels better too.

    Take care , fingers crossed you get some decent sleep

    Juliepf x
  • dorcas
    dorcas Member Posts: 3,516
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Hi NB,

    you've been going through a hard time with arther for some time now so it's perfectly understandable that you're feeling low and easily moved to tears.

    I know what it feels like and have had the experiences you've had in not being able to do the 'normal' tasks and how frustrating that is.... I'm sure your daughter understands about the physical issues that stop you doing some things but equally knows and benefits from the love you've shown while she's been unwell.

    This arther is a pig to live with and when you're not getting respite from the constant pain and overwhelming fatigue that comes with it, then it slowly but surely brings you down.

    Have you spoken to your GP about how you're feeling? perhaps this is something s/he can help you with.?

    I also wonder if your meds need reviewed so that you get something more effective in pain control and in helping you to sleep.

    I wish I had that elusive magic wand NB... and could take this away from you.

    lots love and ((((hugs))))

    Iris xxx
  • penfactor
    penfactor Member Posts: 366
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Awww, really feel for you, hon - there are days when nothing you do or think will stop the tears coming. Sending hugs also & telling you I think you're amazing the way you have coped with all your problems.
    love Pennie X
  • caterina57
    caterina57 Member Posts: 1,424
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Hi nearly heres a big (((((((((()))))))) for you to try to make you feel better, I too wish I had a majic wand ,I would wave it across the whole of this forum - but I dont and unfortunately Arthur doesn't go away.
    I agree that perhaps you need a medicine review - and dont worry about your daughter, her chest infection will clear and she will still love you!
    Cath
  • tkachev
    tkachev Member Posts: 8,332
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    I am so sorry you are having such a horrible time. I am sure your daughter understand and loves you very much.

    Elizabeth
    Never be bullied into silence.
    Never allow yourself to be made a victim.
    Accept no ones definition of your life

    Define yourself........

    Harvey Fierstein
  • dreamdaisy
    dreamdaisy Member Posts: 31,520
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    You have had a tough few weeks one way and another, no wonder you are so drained. It hits us all from time to time, we know what it is like. Hang on in there, NB, things will pick up - be kind to yourself, you are usually one of life's 'copers' and that coping skill will pop back into your life soon. Try not to fret too much about your girl: she knows the problems you face and she won't hold the bottle thing against you, of that I am sure. She probably hasn't thought twice about it. DD
    Have you got the despatches? No, I always walk like this. Eddie Braben
  • nearlybionic
    nearlybionic Member Posts: 1,899
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Hi
    Thanks Cris, Julie, Iris, Pennie, Cath ,Elizabeth and DD
    It is really good to have understanding people like you to talk to, as I don`t tell people around me how I really feel. I am close to tears again reading your replies xx
    I probably do need to go back to the GP but feel like I am never away and feel like a nuisance. I will give it til next week (well I wouldn`t get an apppointment before then anyway!) and if things don`t improve I`ll go back. I have a huge box of meds and do add things in myself when things get bad. But I am a bit limited as to what I can use during the day so I am not falling asleep at work or at the wheel. :shock:
    I have referred myself back to OT as I need to discuss my hands. I am waiting for a letter as there is a waiting list.
    Thanks again and if I find a magic wand I will share it around I promise .
    NB
  • traluvie
    traluvie Member Posts: 2,579
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Hi NB,

    Just wanted to send you a big hug(((((X)))))...
    Things do get frustrating and on top of us at times, and seeing your daughter not well just adds to the emotion, as Cath said she will be better soon..
    I hope you feel better soon ... they say it's good to cry... releases all that emotion...
    Take care
    th_tn_TisFORTIGGER.jpgxxTracyxx
  • elainebadknee
    elainebadknee Bots Posts: 3,703
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Hi NB

    Its hard isnt it when you need medication but cant take it because youre working and driving...all i can say is that well done you, a lot of people wouldnt be at work so thats a tremendous effort youre putting in on a daily basis....
    Pain can wear you down so much to the point that when someone speaks to you, you get emotional....It happens to a lot more people than you think so dont feel bad about doing it.....
    I hope you can get to see your gp and maybe they can advise you or prescribe something...

    Elainex
    Hi
    Thanks Cris, Julie, Iris, Pennie, Cath ,Elizabeth and DD
    It is really good to have understanding people like you to talk to, as I don`t tell people around me how I really feel. I am close to tears again reading your replies xx
    I probably do need to go back to the GP but feel like I am never away and feel like a nuisance. I will give it til next week (well I wouldn`t get an apppointment before then anyway!) and if things don`t improve I`ll go back. I have a huge box of meds and do add things in myself when things get bad. But I am a bit limited as to what I can use during the day so I am not falling asleep at work or at the wheel. :shock:
    I have referred myself back to OT as I need to discuss my hands. I am waiting for a letter as there is a waiting list.
    Thanks again and if I find a magic wand I will share it around I promise .
    NB
  • madwestie
    madwestie Member Posts: 383
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    NB I just wanted to send you another ((hug)).
    I hope you get some good nights sleep soon and things settle down a bit.
    Like you i feel as if i am always at the doctors but unfortuantely that is how arthur makes you feel I am sure the doctor doesn't feel like that.

    Tracey
  • katie5
    katie5 Member Posts: 242
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    NB

    just want to send you a big hug (((((((())))))) its so awful when you feel low but everyone here is gathering round to support and wish you and your daughter a speedy recovery.

    if you do find that magic wand - pass it on xx

    katie x
  • nearlybionic
    nearlybionic Member Posts: 1,899
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Hi
    Thankyou Tracy, Elaine, Tracey and Katie.xx
    I am ready for bed now and hoping for sleep tonight.
    I am not looking forward to work tomorrow as I do not know the people I am working with and don`t feel like explaining myself to them and asking for help. Elaine, it would be so easy to not go to work, but I have had so much time off over the past 2 years that I daren`t have any more, especially at the moment as there are sooo many changes happening. You are right though it is a tremendous effort.
    Thanks again for your support on here. I am feeling really drained physically and emotionally. I hope for better things for all of us soon xx
    NB
  • skezier
    skezier Member Posts: 11,333
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Hi Nearly,

    Hope you got a bit of decent sleep last night, lack of sleep is a killer and makes everything seem so much worse as well.

    Leaving you a (((( )))) and a hope you get a better day. Hope as well your little un is a lot better today too. Cris xx
  • constable
    constable Member Posts: 2,115
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Hi nearly, I just wanted to send you a really big HUG and hope that last night you got a better nights sleep. Lack of sleep is awful, and I can well understand you crying. But crying is a good release. We should all do it more often.

    I do hope that working with different people today will work out for you.

    I'll be thinking of you and hope that you feeling more on top today.

    Karen xx
    Karen xx
  • dorcas
    dorcas Member Posts: 3,516
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Hi NB,

    Hope you managed some decentish sleep and are not feeling so drained this morning. Trying to work when feeling low and in pain is a tall order so I hope too that the new workmates are supportive and that you have a better day at work than you anticipated.

    We are here for you .

    Love and ((((hugs))))

    Iris xxx

    ps.. (((hugs))) to your daughter too...hope the chest infection's on the way out. xx
  • julie47
    julie47 Member Posts: 6,041
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Hi nearly

    Hope you slept ok and that this morning you feel a little better.

    Just to let you know I am thinking of you and I hope work is going ok.

    How is your daughter today? better too i hope

    Take care
    Juliepf x
  • dachshund
    dachshund Member Posts: 9,155
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Hi Nearly
    i hope you feel better try not to worry that can make things feel worse.
    ((((((((Nearly))))))))
    take care i hope your daughter is feeling better.
    joan xx
    take care
    joan xx
  • skezier
    skezier Member Posts: 11,333
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Hi Nearly,

    I so hope you got some decent sleep and are feeling a bit better today? Also the little one as well.

    just dropping you in a FULL bucket of sleep well draft ( don't tel Hileena please cus i did drink half of hers :wink: ) and a couple of get well buckets as well as another (((( )))) Cris xx
  • dreamdaisy
    dreamdaisy Member Posts: 31,520
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Hi NB, I hope things have gone a little better today for all of you. DD
    Have you got the despatches? No, I always walk like this. Eddie Braben
  • nearlybionic
    nearlybionic Member Posts: 1,899
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Hi
    Thank you so much to all of you. Your messages are lovely to read. I slept til 2 ish then woke on and off for rest of night til I gave up at 6!
    I have had a very busy day at work, which is a good thing so I don`t have time to think too much. I am sore now as I didn`t have my specially fitted chair at this office . It is only for 2 more days then I`m back in my own office base.
    My hands are playing up again shooting pains on my joints. (Go away arthur!)
    I am tired now and plan a quiet night.
    My daughter is still coughing +++ but she slept a bit better last night, thanks for asking xx
    I hope you all have a good night xx
    NB
  • woodbon
    woodbon Member Posts: 4,969
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Hello, I'm sorry, it sounds as if all the bad things are happening at once, which is often the case. It all piles up and looking after your poorly little girl, when your tired must be hard. That you worry about her makes you a good Mum and anyway, love's the best medicine and you don't have to put a lid on it! Working in a different place is always stressful, whithout all the other things to worry about.
    This is a bad time of the year,but spring is soon comming and warmer days, (I hope). So give yourself a big hug from me and remember what a great Mum you are and how much you and your little girl love each other. I'm sure she'll soon be well again soon! Love Sue xxxxx(((()))