Just when it was going so well ......

keldi

I have had two or three really good days in a row where any pain has been at a minimum. I have been making sure that I have not over done things - cos we all knows what happens when you do, and I have been enjoying life.

Then it happened.

A slight discomfort in my wrist yesterday suddenly became the most awful pain I have ever experienced. Any movement caused a pain so bad that it brought a tear to my eye. I have had to go back to wearing steel wrist splints and taking more pain killers than are good for me and supporting my wrist on cushions. I feel next to useless. Doctors response?...." see how it goes and if it is no better in a couple of days make an appointment to see me"

Why me? I am normally such a positive person and refuse to let this ******* condition win. I am not a bad person. I have led a good honest life, I am trying hard to give up smoking and have not liked the taste of alcohol since I became pregnant with my first child over 24 years ago. Up until a couple of years ago I was also quite a physically fit person and enjoyed life to the full.

Yesterday and today I am in considerable pain and angry. I am like Dr Jeckle and Mr Hyde. Poor hubby does not know what to say to me and is in danger of getting his head bitten off if he tries to say anything.

Apologies to all you good folk who are reading this, I am sure that you could do without it, but I just had to get it off my chest and put it in perspective. Hopefully I will re-read this tomorrow and laugh with shame when I realise how pathetic I sound.

Thanks for reading right to the end of this rant, It can not have been easy for you.

mig

rant away thats what we are here for.hope things get better soon.Mig

Turbogran

you rant all you want we all do it sometimes it's what the forums for and it helps to write it down

pickle

Rant away m'dear, I am sure that we have all felt exactly the same, I know I certainly have. This condition, disease, nightmare or whatever you want to call it, simply has no respect. It is not your fault, you didn't cause it and you don't deserve it so, rant all you want if it helps. Hugs to you, Pickle x

valval

arther messes with your head that is for sure. come on here and rant away we understand the frustration of not being able to do what your head says you can val

Ankyspond

Kelso,

You are only doing what all of us want to do at times and some of us do (I did last week). Sometimes no matter how hard we try to keep it together, how hard we try to stay positive it just gets too much and that's where this forum comes into place I think.

Sorry your feeling this bad and hoping you feeling better soon. Xx

petals

Oooh i feel sooo sorry for you, i have been there too.

That awful pain in the wrist that wont let you wash your hair properly or clean your teeth or all the other 101 things that we used to take for granted but now struggle with, and it keeps you awake at night so you feel even worse in the morning.

Yes it is cruel and it makes you cry. Well cry all you want, rant and rage and get it out of your system cos you know what........its not bloody well fair.

I so feel for you and I hope your doc can sort it out if it doesn't settle down. In the mean time rest up and treat yourself to whatever you fancy from the fridge (regardless of calories, you're entitled)

How I wish they could find a cure for arthritis.

Take care of yourself, Petals

dreamdaisy

Arthritis does this. It appears to clear up, the symptoms soften, you feel better and brighter and then it bites, stronger and more harshly than ever.

I see mine as some demented puppeteer. I dangle on the strings, it pulls and twists and raises and lowers at will, it's nothing to do with me. It also has strings that connect with the mind too. I am a bizarre Andy Pandy. Thus is life with arthritis. DD

frogmorton

Hi Keldi

Poor you :sad:

At least you have us??? we dont mind if you have a moan and won't be offended if you are angry, we wont be like our nearest and dearests are; feeling powerless and anxious and terrified for you.

I do hope this is a short-lived flare for you l know you are doing all the right things to ease the pain and wish l could take it away for you.

Love and gentle hugs

Toni xx

julie47

Hi Keldi

I hope wearing your splints and trying to rest your wrists as much as possible helps.

Fingers crossed for you that things inprove soon

Juliepf x

nanarose

Hi Keldi.
You are going through a rotten phase, and I just hope that you eventually can see light at the end of this tunnel of pain.

Hugs x

stickywicket

I think wrist pain can, in some ways, be the worst although they're not weight-bearing joints. I used to experience it as feeling like two small bones had crossed over and were trying to get back. Splints helped and also, for some reason I never understood, jamming something as hard as possible into the palm of my hand.

Being a good or bad person is, unfortunately, completely irrelevant. I'm not entirely sure whether I'd have fared better or worse if it wasn't. Good luck.

keldi

Thank you, you lovely people. I feel that I have been blessed with a large, very sympathetic and understanding extended family.

I am feeling more comfortable today and am in better spirits. I know that what you say about feeling angry is normal, but I get disappointed in myself for feeling that way. I will try to accept the bad days as well as continue to celebrate the good ones.

Diane x

frogmorton

Oh l am glad Diane

Now don't beat yourself up for feeling angry it's part of it all and we all fel it from time to time if we are honest.

Keep on getting better

Love

Toni xx