Self inflicted pain

tjt6768
tjt6768 Member Posts: 12,170
edited 18. Mar 2012, 16:08 in Living with Arthritis archive
Hi folks.
Hope everyone is ok, sorry not bin on much, wifi signal here is pants.
Some of you know I'm down in london at the minute, been here since monday, home tomorrow afternoon.. Have met up with some of our yank friends who were doing the whole tourist thing..
I've been a really stupid boy :roll: I've done way too much. Drugged myself to high Heaven and thought bugger the consequences...
I know, many of you told me to get a wheelchair, but to be fair, Janet isn't well enough to push me plus we've been having to travel on the tubes as the buses add at least an hour onto the journey. The tubes are extremely disabled un-friendly :shock: not many of the stations other than the newer ones have lifts or escalators.. So a wheelchair would have been useless lol.. I've struggled sooooooo much with the stairs here... I know it's all self inflicted really but wondered if you would be kind enough to offer some moral support? I'm in sooooooo much pain right now.. I could cry, but I won't, cos I'm a bloke lol..
My knees have ballooned. I've protected them as much as possible with knee supports, my hands and wrists are killing from the crutches, my back is awful.. Right this very moment I HATE THIS DISEASE WITH ALL OF MY HEART & SOUL!! :x
My diazepam supply is almost out.. I've had to increase my fentanyl back up to 75mcg/hr from the 50 I had recently dropped down to.. That and the diclofenac are barely helping at the minute.
I could do with the forum lump hammer please..

Having said all of that, we have had a fantastic time seeing our pals. Went on the London eye which was great...

Right, I shall stop my whining and try to sleep.
Thanks for taking the time to read the mumblings of an old fart. :D

e050.gifMe-Tony
n035.gifRa-1996 -2013 RIP...
k040.gif
Cleo - 1996 to 2011. RIP

Comments

  • PollySid
    PollySid Member Posts: 343
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Sorry you are in pain Tony. Just think of the good time you had getting there though - and you will do it again another time, because you don't want your Arthur to stop you from doing things that you enjoy.
    I hope your pains calm down a bit soon.
    I am suffering a bit more than usual too - had to take an extra Coco this morning at 4.30am - and all I done was the ironing and tidied out a clothes cupboard!
  • CJHunter
    CJHunter Member Posts: 1,038
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Hey u old fart :lol: No lump hammer handy as on bus heading to work.

    Know what ya mean about the tube access though, its pants aint it. There are some, and i mean some, helpfull guards who do direct u to the lifts or help ya but they are not always easy to find , neither are the lifts for that matter.
    The tube was not designed with disability in mind, but hey it is bloody old,lol

    Am sorry its given yr arthur a bashing. U will both be able to rest n recover when u get home. Bet RA is missing ya too. xx

    Not too girly hugs for ya T ((((()))))
    Clare xxeyeore-1.jpg
  • JuliaHod12
    JuliaHod12 Member Posts: 456
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Oh Tony
    The price we pay for a wee bit of pleasure eh? :-(

    I saw somebody with a rolator the other day and suggested tomy hubby that i get one.............he said no bloody fear, you'e only want to sit on it and have me wheel you about...........hmmm!

    In all seriousness, you take great care now and I sincerely hope the flare up and pain subside before too long xx

    love & hugs
    Julia xx
  • mig
    mig Member Posts: 7,154
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    AW Tony so sorry youare going thru it ,we all do too much sometimes thinking we can get away with it and then live to regret it,hope things improve soon .(((()))) Mig
  • stickywicket
    stickywicket Member Posts: 27,764
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    OK. Got lump hammer. Will travel. Just point me in the right direction and give the instructions in proper Yorkshire English that I can understand. As well as the hammer, I’ve got a dozen boxes of man-sized tissues so, if you disguise your sobs with a hefty snort, you can weep away without anyone knowing. And welcome to the dozy old wassocks club. I guess you’ll be needing a couple of these. ((()))
    If at first you don't succeed, then skydiving definitely isn't for you.
    Steven Wright
  • purpleunicorn
    purpleunicorn Member Posts: 67
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Hi Tony

    Would it make it any easier to bear if you think of it as a sort of hangover??? That 'I know I'm going to regret this but what the hell' type of thing, followed by 'damn it, I am NEVER doing this again'. :mrgreen:

    Seriously, I'm sorry you're feeling so bad, and really hope it doesn't last too long.

    Take care

    Aly x
  • julie47
    julie47 Member Posts: 6,041
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    http://www.cosgan.de/images/midi/boese/r020.gif oh dear tony
    I knew you would over do it :(

    I thought the tube stations would be a problem but I was hoping that by now 2012 they would be disabled friendly. :roll:

    Glad you are having a good time though, and that you have enjoyed seeing your friends again.

    Take care
    Love & ((())) juliepf x :D
  • julie47
    julie47 Member Posts: 6,041
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    ok :?: :?:

    why hasn't my cosgan picture appeared :roll:
  • ironic
    ironic Member Posts: 2,361
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Aw Tony, I hope today is a little better for you, but you have done so well. Hopefully you will look back on the trip with rose tinted glasses and only remember the good bits. :P

    It has been many years since I was last in London but it was a nightmare on the public transport and everyone seem to be too rushed to give their fellow travellers any leeway.
    Fascinating place though.. :D
  • traluvie
    traluvie Member Posts: 2,579
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Here is a man hug for you Tony..


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    Sending positive vibes and some moral support
    th_tn_TisFORTIGGER.jpgxxTracyxx
  • bubbadog
    bubbadog Member Posts: 5,544
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Oh Tony me old cocker!! What am I to do with you!! You need wrapping in cotton wool so not to hurt yourself! Try and give yourself time to rest and let your body heal it's self instead of bombing about all day. Ra is not going to be happy with you when you get home. It means he will have to extend his mission taking care of you! Rest up me ol'mate and get yourself stronger! Send my love to J and I send a big bear ((HUG)) to you .
  • jillyb1
    jillyb1 Member Posts: 1,725
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Oh , poor you , know what you mean as I was always doing too much ; it's easier now I'm a wheelchairer but still get sooo weary . Glad you enjoyed your catch up but bet you will be glad to get back to the yorkshire fresh air . Hugs to both of you . Jillyb
  • dreamdaisy
    dreamdaisy Member Posts: 31,520
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Berk. We warned you. Come here and soak my generous bosom with your manly Yorkshire tears. ((())) DD
    Have you got the despatches? No, I always walk like this. Eddie Braben
  • dreamdaisy
    dreamdaisy Member Posts: 31,520
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Just a quick note to let you all know that tjt is having train trouble. One broke, it limped to another station where they had to change onto one that is hopefully working but at least he and Mrs tjt have managed to get seats on the replacement! Hopefully he will soon be safely home. DD
    Have you got the despatches? No, I always walk like this. Eddie Braben
  • tillytop
    tillytop Member Posts: 3,460
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Thinking of you Tony.

    Love Tillyxxx
  • tjt6768
    tjt6768 Member Posts: 12,170
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Thank you all. Especially dear sweet DD and her ample bosom..
    We are home now. Both exhausted.. I'm suffering beyond words but my own silly fault..
    That train thing wasn't great, Janet couldn't get a seat for a while..
    Oh boy, why did I do it? Haha

    I need more drugs :roll: :lol:
    Catch you all in a while.
    e050.gifMe-Tony
    n035.gifRa-1996 -2013 RIP...
    k040.gif
    Cleo - 1996 to 2011. RIP
  • Puschinka
    Puschinka Member Posts: 176
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Hope you get a good night's sleep, sorry to hear you were in so much pain, only just seen this post.
    Hope you feel better soon!
    And that you have nice memories anyway.
    Life is what happens while you're busy making other plans.
  • tjt6768
    tjt6768 Member Posts: 12,170
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Bless ya hun. Certainly do have lots of nice memories. Shall post some photos when back at HQ, we are, erm, in Skeggy :shock: our good friends Liz & Eric brought us down in their car as I've not been in any state to drive since the southern trip. We needed to get top the caravan here top sort things out. I'm trying my best to be a good.boy and sit back & supervise but it's not in my nature :roll: so more self inflicted pain. I am going to be in deeeeeeeep trouble when these diazapam run out :shock: it's the only way I'm still going of sorts lol.
    Thank you for the kind words though mi dear, very appreciated. :wink:
    Puschinka wrote:
    Hope you get a good night's sleep, sorry to hear you were in so much pain, only just seen this post.
    Hope you feel better soon!
    And that you have nice memories anyway.
    e050.gifMe-Tony
    n035.gifRa-1996 -2013 RIP...
    k040.gif
    Cleo - 1996 to 2011. RIP
  • stickywicket
    stickywicket Member Posts: 27,764
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    delboy wrote:
    It's reaffirmed my decision not to go to the Olympics.

    What sport were you hoping to compete in, del?

    Tony, I can't compete with a man hug but I hope you've finally seen the light and stopped torturing those joints of yours. Also hope it's as sunny in Skeggy as it is here.
    If at first you don't succeed, then skydiving definitely isn't for you.
    Steven Wright
  • tjt6768
    tjt6768 Member Posts: 12,170
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    blimey :shock: a man hug from Del. Lol
    Thanks matey, appreciate it, I know it wasn't easy for you haha..
    Just on our way home from Skeggy, don't worry, I've not had to drive etc. neighbours brought us.. :D
    delboy wrote:
    julie47 wrote:
    ok :?: :?:

    why hasn't my cosgan picture appeared :roll:

    You didn't enclose it in IMG tags r020.gif

    No sympathy for self inflicted pain but we all do it don't we otherwise we would be building coffins as there would be no point to living.

    Oh go on then, man hug on way.

    It's reaffirmed my decision not to go to the Olympics.
    e050.gifMe-Tony
    n035.gifRa-1996 -2013 RIP...
    k040.gif
    Cleo - 1996 to 2011. RIP
  • barbara12
    barbara12 Member Posts: 21,281
    edited 30. Nov -1, 00:00
    Oh Tony
    Sorry Im late, well you did it, and if you hadn't you would have been wishing you had..are you keeping up, I am glad you got to London, but soooo sorry you are suffering...you rant away, and the rest up till your next adventure...you are our very own Tin Tin...bless... here are some gentle hugs (((((()))) xx and some for Janet...Im sure you will give them to her ((((()))) xx
    Love
    Barbara