Bit Fed Up

elainebadknee

Hi All

Im so sorry to come on here moaning when I havent got a lot to do so....Past few weeks for me have been difficult, for some reason Ive just been feeling quite down but trying to put on a brave face on the front too...
I am waiting for TKR at Wrightington, i last saw surgeon 20th Feb and he was really pleased id lost over 3stone...He said he still wanted me to wait 6months more till I was put on waiting list for surgery..At the time I was okay and thought "well I'll get it end of year"....Its like when he told me that i was ready to go on waiting list for surgery and it didnt happen, he moved the goalposts...
For some reason in past 6 weeks or so have lost motivation...I got to the gym like I always did but my heart isnt in it, I do the exercises go through the motions....I cant complain about home life, i live at home with mum and dad and ive no money worries so why do i feel so fed up?
Did try to contact Wrightington to see about bringing surgery forward but they said talk to my doctor and cant get to see her till 21st of this month and then its only a phone appointment....
Im not sleeping great and at moment got palpitations which have had in past, know they wont kill me but they are not nice....
So sorry again for moaning about the triviality of this, but needed to express myself somehow....

Elainex

JuliaHod12

Hi Elaine

I'm sorry you are feeling so down...........but it's not really surprising is it?
Don't ever apologise for having a grumble my lovely...........we all have times when we need to let off a little steam and vent!

The fact that your surgeon has changed the goalposts is grossly unfair.
Perhaps you could contact your local hospital PALS office...? They are there to help people who are having difficulties in receiving the services they need!

I know your heart may not be in it, but keepupthe good work as it will pay dividends.

You know you are never alone with us lot in here.

love & hugs

Julia xx

elainebadknee

Hi Julia

I still feel so bad for doing this when read other people's post they are in so much pain than me....
I just wasnt prepared for the surgeon to tell me that I had to wait 6 more months...My knee has been like this since summer of 2009 so to me its a heck of a long time living a more restricted life....
I dont know about PALS because this person was my second opinion and the guy before that I put in a complaint about him as he was very brusque with me and gave me a take it or leave it surgery (kneecap removal)....My confidence isnt high just now but it was at christmas cos i was near my target weight, working towards my goal but when i saw my new surgeon he didnt even weigh me, i could have told him i was much lighter than i was, he didnt check..
Im thankful im not alone both at home and on here..You have been very nice to me on here and I thank you for lovely message..

Elainex

JuliaHod12 wrote:

Hi Elaine

I'm sorry you are feeling so down...........but it's not really surprising is it?
Don't ever apologise for having a grumble my lovely...........we all have times when we need to let off a little steam and vent!

The fact that your surgeon has changed the goalposts is grossly unfair.
Perhaps you could contact your local hospital PALS office...? They are there to help people who are having difficulties in receiving the services they need!

I know your heart may not be in it, but keepupthe good work as it will pay dividends.

You know you are never alone with us lot in here.

love & hugs

Julia xx

Numptydumpty

Hi Elaine,
You go ahead and have a moan. We'll all listen. It sounds to me as though you're having a rough deal.
Little wonder you're fed up!
I hope things get sorted for you soon. In the mean time, keep posting here.
Thinking of you and wishing you well,
Numpty

elainebadknee

Hi Numpty

I just wish it was late august and my letter was in the post so i could get on list for surgery....Im terrified of the operation but i need to have it, whether it works or not i need to come to life again....Im wilting at moment...

Thanks for replying to my post...

Elainex

Numptydumpty wrote:

Hi Elaine,
You go ahead and have a moan. We'll all listen. It sounds to me as though you're having a rough deal.
Little wonder you're fed up!
I hope things get sorted for you soon. In the mean time, keep posting here.
Thinking of you and wishing you well,
Numpty

mig

A moan and rant is good for you lets some of the aggression out.Sending big hugs (((()))) Mig

Folara

You moan and rant away, it's what the forum is for. We all need to splurge sometimes and here you are with like minded (and bodied) people.

Hugs

Fols x

barbara12

Elaine you are suffering, you will get down ..you are still young and must be thinking what you could be doing...sorry am I making things worse...what I mean is you deserve to have a moan.
Did you get through to the secretary's....what they think your doctor can do is beyond me.....is it any use saying ring again or you waiting to see your GP
I suppose when you cant quite put your finger on why you are so down makes it harder for you.
You take care, aren't you due a little holiday maybe that is just what you need..x

elainebadknee

Thanks for listening Mig....Appreciated..

Elainex

mig wrote:

A moan and rant is good for you lets some of the aggression out.Sending big hugs (((()))) Mig

elainebadknee

Hi Fols

I know but to most i am able bodied just walk with a limp/got a gammy leg.....I appreciate your message though...

Elainex

Folara wrote:

You moan and rant away, it's what the forum is for. We all need to splurge sometimes and here you are with like minded (and bodied) people.

Hugs

Fols x

elainebadknee

Hi Barbara

Well i am off to scotland at end of month and then to menorca in end of sept too but i am fed up of everything at moment...Same in every day...
I look at jobs every week but wonder who would employ me as i am just now or even interview me...
I did contacr judith morland last time dont know who his secretary is...She wasnt very sympathetic just kept saying "talk to your gp first"....Im betting my doc will just think im a bit down and cajole me, nothing more..
To everyone else i dont have reason to moan, just feel im living half a life....Want my own back, sorry if that sounds dramatic..

Youre a good one Barbara...x

Elainex

barbara12 wrote:

Elaine you are suffering, you will get down ..you are still young and must be thinking what you could be doing...sorry am I making things worse...what I mean is you deserve to have a moan.
Did you get through to the secretary's....what they think your doctor can do is beyond me.....is it any use saying ring again or you waiting to see your GP
I suppose when you cant quite put your finger on why you are so down makes it harder for you.
You take care, aren't you due a little holiday maybe that is just what you need..x

diamond

Sorry to hear Elaine that you seem rather fed up at the moment.Try not to be hard on yourself you have done great at losing your weight and doing all the gymn work.You just moan away after all we cannot be positive all the time,hopefully your op will get get done by August once you get a date it will lift you up.Have a nice weekend.xxx

elainebadknee

Hi Diamond

August just seems an age away and I am so sick of living like this, not having a purpose so to speak...Why do i get penalised for being young, its not as if ive got a tardis to hop into is it?

Elainex

diamond wrote:

Sorry to hear Elaine that you seem rather fed up at the moment.Try not to be hard on yourself you have done great at losing your weight and doing all the gymn work.You just moan away after all we cannot be positive all the time,hopefully your op will get get done by August once you get a date it will lift you up.Have a nice weekend.xxx

ruby2

Ah Elaine you should be proud of yourself with your achievement I would never have such willpower.

I think we could all do with a bit of sunshine on our faces by this time of year, I'm sure that would perk alot of us up.

Be sure to be firm with the consultant, tell him what you have done and how patient you have been, then let him know how it is making you feel to keep waiting. You have stuck to your part of the deal.
If he knows it is beginning to bother you emotionally he should listen and hopefully give you something more definite.

Best wishes

dreamdaisy

Everyone is different with what they can handle and/or manage but any continual pain or difficulty is a huge affront to what we thought life may offer. This is why the forum is such a valuable place - it's here for those with one affected joint (no matter how big or small) and those who are beyond that. It's one of the few things in life that makes us all equal.

RosieGlow

You were given a goal to aim for Elaine, and the promise of support, and the help to improve your life, if you achieved it. You`ve done a marvellous job, especially as self motivation is so very hard. Now, however, you must be feeling cheated. Don`t give up, keep fighting for what was promised to you. Start with your GP, as advised, and be totally honest about how it is all affecting you now emotionally, as well as physically. I really hope you get the right result very soon. My TKR gave me back my life, and I really wish the same for you.......Rosie......xxx.

elainebadknee

HI Rosie


Well you see without my goal to score I feel like its been scored and disallowed...I want my operation and feel the longer I fester awasy like this the more detrimental it is to me.....
I dont feel ive done a marvellous job, instead I feel ive worked hard and been palmed off again, i kpet my end of the bargain??

Elainex

RosieGlow wrote:

You were given a goal to aim for Elaine, and the promise of support, and the help to improve your life, if you achieved it. You`ve done a marvellous job, especially as self motivation is so very hard. Now, however, you must be feeling cheated. Don`t give up, keep fighting for what was promised to you. Start with your GP, as advised, and be totally honest about how it is all affecting you now emotionally, as well as physically. I really hope you get the right result very soon. My TKR gave me back my life, and I really wish the same for you.......Rosie......xxx.