A New Idea.....ummm not sure about it ;-)

skezier

Saw the pain doc yesterday...

She is very good and I am very lucky as she said she will do all she can to support the neck... and now the long term shift that is the lumber...

She said the back OT might be a good idea and I should talk to the Rumo about it and see why he stopped it....

We ran through the mri.. the bottom of my back has had it really but the cord is ok and the rest is over use....

The cutting in half comes from the lumber. Its L1 and its probably the pa as it still backs off and the oa never has yet The ribs and sternum are also the pa and the collar bones are the one I haven't got as well as the tendinitis etc..... See I haven't got it

Actually I genuinely don;t believe I have....

She is going to re-do all the botox, medrone and cortisone. The normal set of bi-latrials and maybe some into L! as well if I am lucky....

Then she said about this blacking out.... Its purely cus I am doing too much and using the lumber too much... I kinda knew that to be homiest...

Then she asked me if I would try seeing someone to help me stop being at war with my body.... I am and have been for years.

Actually i have been so long I don;t know how to stop. Its not just the employers its everything....

I have said yes but I don;t think I can ever change and the employers are going no where!

Maybe it will help?! Maybe it wont but tis worth a try I guess.....

You all take care and forgive me for being behind on the forum and also pms Cris xx

dreamdaisy

There's no need for forgiveness you daftie, none at all. I guess that what this comes down to is do you want to change how you live? Perhaps it is time to start taking into account the physical cost to yourself but only you can assess that. I think you have answered your question. You are as you are and you live as you live, you drive yourself hard and I cannot see how anyone - apart from you - will change that. You are unique. ((()))) DD

stickywicket

It's very definitely worth a try and I do so hope it'll help, my love. It's about time something did. Yes, go for it and we'll all be going for it with you though half of me'll stay on the roof to keep an eye on stuff - better leave the half with my head on, then. I really hope it helps.

valval

well can not hurt to try can it i do hope it helps ((())) val

suzygirl

Thinking of you Cris and glad to hear that someone is helping you

Numptydumpty

Dear Cris,
I do hope it helps and is the right thing for you. Like you say it's got to be worth a try!
Fondest wishes,
Numpty

elnafinn

Go for it, dear Cris, you have nothing to lose and everything or at least perhaps something, to gain. Think positive. Please do not worry about not replying to posts and messages. I for one, do not seem to have much spare time now since hubby retired. We only have the one computer too, so sometimes we play musical chair. All good, but so busy!

Love and gentle hugs
Elna x

tjt6768

Cris mi lovely, this might turn out to be the very thing you need hun. And if not, at least you have tried it.. You are without a doubt one of the toughest ladies I know, and I'm from Leeds
I sincerely and truly wish you the very best whatever you decide to do. Me and Ra will be behind you 100%...
Reet proper Yorkshire Bloke hugs coming your way via Spain

Heather65

Give it a go and see what happens

dachshund

Hello Cris.
i've been hoping for some thing to help you pehaps this is it
go on give it a try you wont know if you dont
((((((((cris))))))))
joan xx

barbara12

Hi Cris
Nothing to lose...you go for it we all know you well enough to know you wont stop what you are doing..in a way thats good because if anything keeps you going its your employers, I really do wish you well with this treatment...sending you loads of good good healing vibes and love xxxxx

skezier

Hi DD, Sticky, Val, Suzy, Numpty, Elna, Tony, Heather, Joan and Barbara,

I don't deserve your support but thank you and your all right... tis worth ago. I guess I do need to understand that the bones are mine and I can;t keep trashing them as much as I do but they have tried to stop me most my life and I just got so used to thinking of them as an outside invader to learn to except they are mine will be hard.... I think

I have had a lot of counselling in my time so this will be similar and the pain doc said she is animal friendly....can't think why she said that :roll:

I have made some changes but I could do with learning to pace my self... its the only thing I have never mastered.. well that and acceptance.....

Was hoping to go out today but.. the back wouldn't let me stand for 2 hours at all.... Was gong to pop over the RCS and watch a mate and her horses... a mare and foal... She done well and even got reserve Cornish champion

Woke up, after a bad night, and the back was moaning a bit to say the least. the oxy's and pregabs too kit down but its lurking about badly today.... and that's a step forward cus a year ago in this state I would have still gone and really b'd my self up!

DD I just will never put the employers behind me. They have been my paramount concern for so long I can't change that,... and nor should I I am ready to see the councillor re this one now and it only taken 4 years

Hope the world is being kind to you and leaving a ((((( ))))) and a slobbery wet milk chopped nudge from Alba xx

Sticky you still safe up there? been some big wind eh?! Hey least for now you have a bit of sun... the winds getting up again though so Slurps and Haz have got big staples to nail over you so you don;t fly off

Flower is bagging up for sure now..... I don't think I can cope with a repeat of last year I really don;t..... It shouldn't happen though should it?! I have sent Velcro up with your tea as she doesn't drink it but Haz seems very close to the ladder.... He has his mud soaked suit on (I must ash it) so ((((( ))))) and grb your dinner off Erk ..... xx

Val It can't do any harm can it? I do have to learn some kind of concept that attacking my bones hurts me.... You know I have so much allowance for other people I must be able to find some for my self... mustn't I?!

I am so behind on the forum but hope your ok and leaving you a ((((( ))))) and a cuppa xx

Suzy I hope it will help... she was pleased that at last I have agreed to see the other woman... I wasn't ready before but am getting bad and this time it hasn't stopped so is unlikely too after this length of time eh?!

Hope your doing ok and sorry if I have missed anything.... I will catch up I promise. ((((( ))))) and a sachet as well for you know who xx

Numpty Thanks flower. I so hope things are a little easier for you today? I really haven't been able to look at the site much the last 2 weeks but thanks to Coco's link things are a bit easier now so promise I will catch up!

You hang in there and I know someone else told you this one but I also agree that surgery is always worth a go ((((( ))))) xx

Elna Glad your having a bit of time with each other. I bet Mr Elna is wondering how did he manage to fit in work I will get the pm's done and pop over the blog if you have a min.. its the other end of the UK and has a cameo by a ell behaved lovely dog.. that obviously isn't mine

This has yo be worth ago and I member you telling me long ago about pacing etc..... how many years is it till I take note Its a start but the employers are exempt from any changes... without them I am nothing and they are not all re-homable etc... I can't go there and as you know I never have been able to.... Mind the pain doc was pleased about Alba ((((( )))) and a hope your not going flat out there? xx

Tony Thanks for the Yorkshire blokey hgs hey you bring the sun back with you or else..... this lot will pay you a visits ... lodgers and all

Enjoy your time there and don't tell me when your all nice and brown Some Cornish sheep infected ((((( ))))) and a bit of decent tea xx

Heather It can only leave things the same I guess... I have this slight complication of having to do the employers but she was saying that I don;t have to stop and she never wants me to but its time to learn to pace....

Hoe your doing ok and this apauling weather is just here? A lamb infested ((((( ))))) - she is in here just now being a mummies girl :roll: - xx

Joan Its not so easy again today but we will get there.... Wish has been up on her legs a bit today so that helps The writing is still on the wall but I am not so worried its now.... Hope Sue and you are both ok and leaving tea and a capachino and some ((((( ))))) for you both xx

Barbara She did say that.. i keep gong and the animals are the only reason I do at times.... she just said I need to learn to pace and think about how to make things a bit less heavy duty ion the back especially a its now out stripped the neck by a furlong!

I must catch up and sorry if I have missed anything but you know i am always there even if I haven't said it. Tea and a ((((( ))))) xx

Right I mst drag this useless torso out and brave the winsds... mind they are now where near as bad

I know I have missed a ton of pocket duties and posts but please know I do still care just I am not too good.

I done one end of the UK on the blog last night and must do this end tonight Its good to have the distraction to be honest and it fits nicely beween Alba's 2nd to and last bottles

You all take care Cris xx

dreamdaisy

It sounds to me as though you are beginning to learn about pacing etc so good for you. Please give Alba a big hug for me (my, that young lady is growing - or is she just closer to the camera? ) and I know you would never, for one moment, give up the Ark. It's a matter of finding a sensible path, yes? Caring for them, sure, that's taken for granted, but it's time to factor in care for yourself. (((()))) and a fresh batch of electric blue copes. (They are fizzing with vim and vigour, don't touch 'em!) DD

Numptydumpty

Cris, thank you for asking Iris to post about her surgery. It really was very helpful. I did reply and thank her, but my computer was down for several days, so the reply was late, and I'm not sure if she saw it! Any way I'm most grateful to you both.
Please just take care of yourself.
Fondest wishes,
Numpty

skezier

Hi DD,

Oh fizzing copes... just what I need Hey she is now 5" above my knee and so near Bre height :shock: She isn't 3 calender months till the 14th and will be Wish's height at least..... I making the same mistakes as I did with Wish and have a very spoilt brat ion my hands

A Ladyship in training even

Yep its the pacing thing, I do it a point and then charge at the arthritis full pelt! Its always been total outright war..... 38 or more years of it as well....

Will give it a go I promise but I have true trouble with accepting its mine.... More tea and Alba said she will bring it up and over there to you.. she will stick her head in the mug but she doesn't drink it xx

Hi Numpty,

Iris is a good one! She really is and, bless her she has so much experience of so many ops. I know she looks in from time to time and she will know you said thank you and that it helped will make her day

Its amazing really... she had to show me the scar as you just don't see them either. really neat and nothing like the huge jagged thing down my back

Iris had her wrist done surgically and she did say I should talk to them about it as it removes nearly all the pain. Numpty I don't know about yours but mine have this constant deep throb most the time.

They gave me splints and supports for them and they do help as well and the plan is since mine are fusing them self up they may as well do it straight so the splint and supports will make sure they do.

What ever you decide will be in your pocket! Hang in there and leaving a cuppa and a ((((( ))))) with a bucket of hopes Cris xx

hileena111

Hi Cris
You go for it petal.....nothing to lose.
The other thing is try to make a better job of getting your face in the way of the botox this time.......didnt work the last time did it????
Leaving the special mug with hot tea in it for you
Love
Hileena

stickywicket

You know, pacing yourself is something we all know the value of but are all so reluctant to practice. I think maybe because there's so much we can't do, when we get a window of opportunity we go at it hell for leather and mess everything up. But it will be so much better long term for both you and the employers if you can manage it.

Can you ask them to be a bit more careful with that staple gun next time? There were a few near misses. Hey, it'll all be good this year. Believe it. ((()))

julie47

Hi Cris

You give it a try

I really hope it helps

Love & Hugs (((((((())))))

Juliepf xx

lindalegs

Really hope this helps you Cris but he/she has a big job on their hands because you've been at war with your poor body for so long. (Even though you've had counselling before all counsellors are different and their approach changes all the time.)

If they need help I could always try hypnotising you.



Fingers crossed it'll be just what you need

Love and a cuppa,

skezier

Thanks folks and I been pacing a bit of late... partly cus of the migraines and eyes though

I been feeling a bit less headachey (the eyes are still iffy though that the neuritis) and have done more and the back and neck have acted accordingly....

Thing is they like coasting and I can afford to or be happy with doing that.

The knee is still being difficult an the wrists have told me they are resigning as well..... Its not always easy and this is what she is going to be helping with.....

Alba is down to 7 bottles a day.. I think though tis hard to remember how many outside those she manages to con me out of by knocking on the door and Flower is bagged up but no other signs yet though it a bit of a fluctuating milk bag still but it might be this week.

I just want to sleep and have to pull that one together a she might need me. She might not but to not be there and something go wrong is something I couldn't cope with.

Doing a Marvin impersonation today eh?!

Promise to find a better head soon Cris xxx

Legs I think this will be an aliment of CBT and I have not had that before as they always told me it wouldn't work. Then other kind I am open to though totally

Yep hypnosis... that does work if I want it to they tried that with me when I was a small kid but I was worried about letting out the secretes I was hiding and wouldn't go under.....

Mind thet doesn't matter any more so go on them ... get your watch swinging xx

stickywicket

A few to be going on with ((()))

skezier

Thanks Sticky.

Keep your eyes on that mare... its looming now and almost look at every 2 hours time..... Alba said she will expect a bottle each tie I do as well.....

Off to the gp in a min but can't remember what I made tie appointment for.... any ideas ... anyone.... Hey maybe memory should be mentioned

Bitof sun up there today so throwing you sun sun cream and Slurps has your tea. He is in his suit so (((( )))) xx