Worst Christmas ever. I feel so down and need to vent so hope that's ok. I have just been medically retired after a lifetime of illness - chrons and arthritis. Long story but just as I finish work my mother has a brain haemorrhage . The last 5 months have been horrendous but she has improved and has come home for Christmas. She had chest pains on Xmas day so I spent the day [email protected]
- they kept her in but I then developed a virus and have been wiped out since. She came home next day and I have struggled to look after her. It's been miserable and I now know I cannot care for her full time. They arel looking into full care packages with a view to her returning to her own house. I feel so down though as if my time has now been snatched away - I am surprised at how selfish I am being. I hate myself for feeling like this. I know ATM I feel so ill it not the best time to think about things but if this is it then what's the point. I was never closei to my mother but I am supportive - I will be there but not 24/7 . It will drive me mad and a final nail in my marriage coffin.
Sorry to be so miserable but I can't stop crying. She is not a nasty mother and I should be happy to care for her but I'm not and its killing me.