Not A Great January...

elainebadknee

Hi

First of all Im sorry to have a moan on here...So if someone reads this and thinks its going to be just doom and gloom apologies, I do try to keep upbeat most of the time...
Ive had a flare of my auto immune disease idiopathic uritciaria and angioedema, it started at weekend with a rash on my TKR 11 weeks post op now at the side..I knew what it was and what I need to sure it - Prednisolone...Trouble was it was weekend so had to attend out of hours clinic, nurse prac thought it was infection and gave me antibiotics which I couldnt take anyway so had to bin them...Now have prednisolone but need more as its not quite under control..
Have been having pain in TKR but have written about that on here so wont bore anymore with that...Will say I am to call up and can be fitted in on monday's arthroplasty practitioner clinic in Wrightington, I live in Kendal..
Now the final nail in the proverbial came yesterday...Went into town, parked in disabled space and went to get my crutch from back seat of my Skoda Fabia which is a Y reg, so not new but I love it....Was horrified to see rear footwell was swimming with water...WEnt home and to cut long story short all footwells were thoroughly wet, wringing! Rung up garage and they are looking at it today but its the kind of job where they have to take all carpets, seats, door cards out completely to find source of water...I looked on a Skoda website and this is a common problem ,trouble is it cost £200 in 2007 so im sick with worry what its going to cost and kind of resigned to the fact if its more than £400 I wil have to scrap the car...I am also on ESA and just sent away re-assessment so would have no means of obtaining another car...I also know the government are cracking down on everyone and am sick of the papers calling us all scroungers and lazy layabouts - why so they have the right?
So I am awfully fed up and I know people have worse problems...I guess its just hit me how pathetic I am financially as I live at home with me folks depsite being age 45....My mum was on phone to brother last night relaying car problems and she talked about helping me with caar bill, which I wouldnt accept, its my problem...And she said "her car means a lot to her", his reply was something like "well if it cant be repaired she will have to do without" which I know fully and she told him he sounded awfully ruthless...Im used to this from siblings as have owned my own place before but couldnt manage so they see me as not able to be independent and they're right but they always remind me of the fact...
Its all just got to a bit so yet again apologies and sorry if its long winded...

Elainexx

LignumVitae

Never apologise for a moan, it's what we are here for! It sounds like you are going through one of those patches where it never rains but it pours. I hope things get better soon for you, from skin, to knee to car.

I had a car that did similar and in the end, all that was needed was a new seal around the windscreen so you never know, it could be something like that. As for your brother, don't let him or anybody else bother you. You are you, he does not live your life or have to deal with that which you have to deal with. Don't see him as doing better for any reason, he doesn't have to walk in your shoes. My brother is a high flying executive with bags of cash and looks down on me (Mr LV gets upset he never comes to our house, I'm quite glad of it) but I see myself as much happier and more robust to life than he (as do everybody else who knows us, he's not good at coping when things don't go to plan). What one sibling has the other may not, it doesn't make anybody better or worse so leave him to his opinions and don't worry about it would be my advice.

Hope it all picks up soon, chin up and focus on how damned well you have done with that knee getting it moving again and how you knew what was wrong when a nurse didn't and are therefore in supreme tune with your body - there's many that aren't.
LV xx

elainebadknee

Hi LV

Thanks for your reply below...You have pointed out many positive things from me knowing my own body with its auto immune thing to doing well with my new knee....The car is worrying me sick, I could share my dad's car but that restricts both him and mum and me....
My brother does annoy me and he has always taken pleasure in winding me up we often argue...What he forgets is that he spent many a year as a single bachelor until about 6 years ago till he met his partner who has 3 teenage/20ish boys....Before that he criticised my sister for how she brought up her girls but his g/f's ones are far from angels...In fact the youngest who they mollycoddle and is 16 gets taken to school every day, isnt allowed on a laptop but has a facebook account and his status says his occupation is "taliban fighter" and he states he hates every effing rangers player (he is a celtic supporter but that is awful)which I find disgusting..I wish his mother and my brother knew how their angel really was!
I know my shortcomings only too well but some I cant do anything about....I try to be the best I can....
Thanks for your message it is lovely, thanks for taking the time to reply...

Elainexx

LignumVitae wrote:

Never apologise for a moan, it's what we are here for! It sounds like you are going through one of those patches where it never rains but it pours. I hope things get better soon for you, from skin, to knee to car.

I had a car that did similar and in the end, all that was needed was a new seal around the windscreen so you never know, it could be something like that. As for your brother, don't let him or anybody else bother you. You are you, he does not live your life or have to deal with that which you have to deal with. Don't see him as doing better for any reason, he doesn't have to walk in your shoes. My brother is a high flying executive with bags of cash and looks down on me (Mr LV gets upset he never comes to our house, I'm quite glad of it) but I see myself as much happier and more robust to life than he (as do everybody else who knows us, he's not good at coping when things don't go to plan). What one sibling has the other may not, it doesn't make anybody better or worse so leave him to his opinions and don't worry about it would be my advice.

Hope it all picks up soon, chin up and focus on how damned well you have done with that knee getting it moving again and how you knew what was wrong when a nurse didn't and are therefore in supreme tune with your body - there's many that aren't.
LV xx