I keep hiding away from reality. I work full time, study for a degree and catch up with some friends when I can.
The problem is that I get these bouts of feeling so down all I want to do is shut myself away from the world.
I have degeneritve arthritis of the spine and Fibromyalgia. I can sit and use the computer to a degree for most of the day but anything else is a nightmare.
I cant cook, clean, dress myself easily, or make myself useful in anyway shape or form. I end up feeling useless and a burden on everyone around me.
No matter what I do everything gets too much - too much sitting, too much laying, too much reading, too much studying etc
Even sleep is becoming no existent and I can only manage 4 hours a night. It is getting beyond a joke and I am tired all the time either because of the pain or because of the lack of sleep.
I could do with a magical cure but I know that there is no magical cure and I know that it is no good feeling sorry for myself because it wont help, but that doesnt change the way I feel and I want to curl up in a ball and stay there.
Sorry for moaning but I dont like moaning to my family because they dont seem to understand why I get so frustrated about no longer being able to do the things I used to because if I do all i get in response is 'we dont mind doing it for you'!
THATS NOT THE F*****G POINT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hope everyone is ok