I had my first interview today since having my TKR 5 months ago. It was a for a local housing association and didn't go too bad, did typed letter test but then onto the dreaded 10 questions that start off with the first liner "so tell me about yourself" I hate that, just be specific! I answered what i could, do you cope under pressure, part of a team, etc then they asked me if it was bad weather and burst pipes etc, how I would cope with that working with the repairs manager as we had a specific budget....I couldnt answer it and didn't want to fluff it so said I had no experience of that...I knew anyway that today was interview experience, my illness wasn't even mentioned which in a way was puzzling but as they didn't bring up the subject neither did I.
Also was supposed to get help, interview techniques from someone in The Shaw Trust, saw her last week and she looked at my CV, promised to meet again to brush up on mock interviews but never followed it up...She did mention to me though as we met as jobcentre and I have auto immune disease, my tubes were all stuffed up and I found it hard to breath through my nose, also the car I could only get parked for an hour and she wanted about 2 hours but she didnt say that prior to appointment. She called on tuesday saying she had streaming cold and that also my general health concerned her as explained before my tubes, my knee was stiff.
So I am feeling a bit in fact a lot more than crap. This knee doesn;t seem to have rid me of the pain I had before...When I get up from sitting on couch I am as sore and stiff as hell. My ligaments hurt, I still stumble, it gives way, I can't walk any further or stand any longer on it.....Ive seen surgical registrar after my 6 weeks check up and he told me the ligaments are still healing, but will this ever get better, others on here who have had the same operation later than me can go on exercise bikes longer or walk longer.....I get told at home too Im always going on about it and to accept i have a false knee that's just how it is.
With no prospect of getting a job, low on confidence, ESA been turned down and appealing but know have little chance of winning as they are failing people I know much worse than me, its seems its either get out to work (I don't feel fit enough yet but don't feel like im so weak can't do anything)....For the first time since my operation Im wondering has it been the right thing? I havent had any money for the whole of this month and how the government think this system is right is beyond me...No wonder people get desolate...