Sorry Don't Know Why Im Like This

elainebadknee

Hi

As people who will know me on here know I've had my TKR 5 months ago...To everyone else that seems a long time ago and I think some people's patience is running out with me. My mum last night when discussing benefits reform stated she didn't think I should get any ESA, I'm fit...She also has suggested I go for jobs in Poundland, or Card Store which are alebit part-time jobs but ones where I would be standing for more than an hour or more at any time...
My ligaments aren't healing they take a long time apparently but nobody tells me how long that will be. That means when I get out of bed, up from seated position I am sore as my knee bends to do so. I have started put my foot flat outstretched in order not to bend the knee as much as its soo painful...Im still in codeine phosphate for pain which my GP wants me off next month. I cant walk, stand or sit any further and stairs, upright exercise bike to me is very painful.
ESA turned me flat down after medical on 31st January they stopped my money on 28th February I have had no money as sent in appeal and had to wait to see CAB in windermere they closed the kendal branch so phoned up today and they recieved it on 28th March it will take 7 days to process by which time they will decide the decision of 0 points stands...I have no hope of winning appeal as its hopeless...
Another thing that will sound stupid the surgical registrar @ Wrightington has left and he was nice, he re-assured me when was in after op that I would be fine depsite severe swelling, bruising and blood transfusion...I don't know why Im so upset he has left, kinda feel someone who was good to me has left and its sooo stupid its crazy...I think I do have a problem whereas I had arfur before but now I no longer have it and it is taking my stupid head a while to get round that..Some days this new knee feels as bad as my old knee, I can't complain as i waited for this operation for over 1.5years and now I feel kind of in limbo....
I need a job but am severely out of date with the new questions that they ask in interviews, im okay on paper but **** in person...I feel pretty damn hopeless all in all...
Am off to a wedding in Durness its gonna be freezing, but it will be a long day plus a 7 hr drive back home, we are splitting it in half staying in a Travelodge.....
I should have everything to look forward to so why don't I feel like that?

Sorry..

Elainexx

nearlybionic

Hi Elaine
I will send you a pm to talk about this x
NB

gilly1957

Hi Elaine

Sorry to hear you are feeling so bad, you have been through a lot over recent months, I don't how anyone can say you are ready for work,obviously you aren't.

Have you told your GP how you are feeling, it sounds like you might be a bit depressed. Maybe some anti-depressants would help.

Stick to your guns over your appeal.
take care gill x

elainebadknee

Gill

I don't think it is depression its just a period of adjustment...Plus my GP's daughter comitted suicide last year just before new year so could hardly go to her to say if I felt a bit fed up....
I just cannot get used to this new knee its soo weird and not how I imagined it at all..

Elainexx

gilly1957 wrote:

Hi Elaine

Sorry to hear you are feeling so bad, you have been through a lot over recent months, I don't how anyone can say you are ready for work,obviously you aren't.

Have you told your GP how you are feeling, it sounds like you might be a bit depressed. Maybe some anti-depressants would help.

Stick to your guns over your appeal.
take care gill x

barbara12

Elaine if its any help I would say its far to soon to be on your feet most of the day...I do think you need to talk to someone again about that knee...and dont think you are being a pain...its just one of these ops that needs more attention...and it is obviously getting you down on top of everything else....wish I could help more but you know we are here (((())) xx