feeling so down

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I am going through a down stage with my oa/fermol nerve in my knee. It is getting me down because it always sore and swellon. My doc said just stay on the tablets. I have not been to my club Jitsue now for a while and wondering what the point is now. The walking about and other exerise is good. As you all know i dont do much then anyway.
Good news that my daughter got engaged but it has not helped.
I am feeling very low and i know i have the family behind me but feel so alone.
I am walking with a stick now which helps, but feel that its oa won the battle and i lost. Thought i could fight this but not now.
Soooo down. My fight has gone (sounds silly as am a black belt in ju jitsue) I thought i could.
Sorry for moaning again just no way else to go.
Feel as if no one cares/ or wants to care, they are all in their own world of themselves.
Its seems that its not just the oa just eveything at home, atmosphere, atttitudes, cheeky, etc
Just want to say thank you for being there.