Bear with me on this one, it might sound odd. When my arthritis first began, the week before anything happened I was incredibly short tempered. This is very unlike me, normally it takes an awful lot to push my buttons and anger is an emotion I really don't like in myself or others.
Before I acknowledged at the start of this summer that my meth was no longer in control or that things were flaring, I was super anxious and nervous. I became timid and I'm not known for my wallflower tendencies as you may have worked out
. Now this flare/ lack of control has become my default setting I know when things are going to take a nose dive because I get a bit fizzy, short tempered and end up doing mad things like washing the floors twice and scrubbing the kitchen until my hands don't work...which I may have just done :oops: . I know when I am doing these things it is stupid but it gets into a frenzy and I can't stop
...I hope this doesn't sound daft to you all and as I say, it's a link that has always existed. Am I alone in that? My normal default mood setting is to not really bother about dirt, other people or getting uptight or upset, devil may care. Just before arthritis gives my body yet another beating I almost become an inverse of my normal self...has anybody else ever noticed this in themselves? The only good thing is that if I can acknowledge what is happening it gives me a little warning about what is to come