Saw my lovely GP this morning and although I did get a bit teary it was a postive appointment. He explained my neuro diagnosis, a very wordy letter had arrived from the consultant which had thrown me and I still felt she was saying my mobility and left side weakness problems were somehow my fault/not real.
He explained my problems are real, and not my fault. He feels that it was triggered by my neck problem, and for some reason this triggered my brain into blocking the signals to and from my left side. He felt that I wouldn't benefit from psychotherapy and I'm happy with this. I feel he knows me and how hard I have worked over the past few months and I trust him. He did make the referral to OT, and felt that a working day of 8.30-3.30 was all I can reasonably be expected to manage/cope with. He also wants to see me again in 4 weeks time to see how I'm doing emotionally as much as anything else.
And, tomorrow I will have completed my first half-term of full-time work since April last year which is something to celebrate.
Put my fairy lights on Fred and Ginger today for the end of term parties. The response from year 6 was that it was "wicked" and "epic"! I'll take that.
He did not say you will not be storm tossed, you will not be sore distressed, you will not be work weary. He said you will not be overcome.
Julian of Norwich