Hello, my name is Luigi,
I live in somerset and have been dealing with Rheumatoid arthritis now for almost 23 years now now, I've been on various medication for it over the years. I now inject Methotrexate and have a new tablet form drug called baracitinib. (Excuse the spelling) alongside the methotrexate. I still have really bad days and I do have good days. I was on tablet form for everything but made me extremely sick.
Only a few months ago I couldn't even get out of bed, but I had to force myself as I cannot afford to lose money through lose of work. And yes there are occasions when I feel like enough is enough as the pain is just unmanageable but my family keep me going. Rheumatology department are so stretched there is a long waiting list.
I do need people to talk to and I have never asked for help before as I feel to proud, but things just get a little to much sometimes and it would be good to talk to someone who really understands the pain and suffering I have. It makes me a grumpy old **** and I'm only 45. This is not like me as I love life, or did, and was always the fun happy guy that everyone wanted to know. I just shut myself away now.
Am I talking rubbish or does this all make sense?