My Identity

tjt6768

elainebadknee wrote:

Hi Tony

Well in all honesty I wasnt one of them that did it a lot, wasnt that confident and besides who knows someone wasnt playing same game too in another pub across town? I were quite good really, used to drink a fair bit mind, used to neck a bottle of cider via a bong (funnel plus plastic tube) and that was before we went out...Some nights we only made 3 pubs and then home...sozzled....
A lot of the old stuff comes back mind dont it...And bands get back together so you can see them again 2nd time round.......
Im sure youe fine, tats n all, im only chicken not to get any done as im needle phobic but i like some tats and it depends if they go with the person too...

Elainex

Haha, the good old days of drinking, I DON'T remmeber them well, lol..
I haven't drunk for years now, I can't, even if I have a sip of something I'm drunk straight away and poorly for three days.. Maybe it's mi age

How's the knee today? I had my first ever steroid injections in mine yesterday, not wanting to push my luck but they feel quite good at the minute, apart from stiff and rather sore from the actual injections.. Gotta rest them for a while apparently, give it time to work into the whole joint..


Tony

elainebadknee

Hi Tony

Well i dont drink much either as im mostly on coproxamol on a daily basis...It dont bother me though really, when i do have a drink now I find I cant sleep well at all....
My knee is sore today, always is...Last night in bed were awful, took me ages to pull it into the bed let alone sleep, but somehow i slept well....I have had 2 steroid injections in the past and they havent made any difference to me at all, I was exepcting to be jumping about like a spring lamb but it never happened so havent had any more...Im glad yours are working for you though.....
Im off to watch the football now...Arsenal v Spurs....

Have a good saturday...

Elainex

elainebadknee

Hi Iris

Well i dont know about grit and determination, have felt so frustrated at times......
I do feel like if someone has to remember me it'd be the woman with the limp n stick.....
However am thankful for all the many hands willing to yank me back to reality on here....

Elainex

tjt6768

elainebadknee wrote:

Hi Tony

Well i dont drink much either as im mostly on coproxamol on a daily basis...It dont bother me though really, when i do have a drink now I find I cant sleep well at all....
My knee is sore today, always is...Last night in bed were awful, took me ages to pull it into the bed let alone sleep, but somehow i slept well....I have had 2 steroid injections in the past and they havent made any difference to me at all, I was exepcting to be jumping about like a spring lamb but it never happened so havent had any more...Im glad yours are working for you though.....
Im off to watch the football now...Arsenal v Spurs....

Have a good saturday...

Elainex

Enjoy your footie.. Think I will have a good day today, I've decided.. WIsh I didn't have to rest the knee too much, if it wasnt so stiff I'd like to go for a walk..
Our good friend Terry has come over to see us and criticise our curtains, lol... He's gay if you couldn't guess from that, but it really cheers me up to see him..

Tony

elainebadknee

Hi Tony

Enjoy your rest when it unstiffens you can walk more, besides its cold at moment....
I didnt right away guess your mate was gay but hey he will likely be a good laugh.

Elainex

tjt6768

Not even when I said he was coming to criticise our curtains? Lol...

Bookseverywhere

Hello Elaine, Only just joined, so have only just read your post.

I too am gay, been with the same bloke for over 20 years and had a civil partnership the very first day we could (and followed by a service and a big party).

Apart from the scene - which is so youth and male oriented - it can be difficult even without mobility issues to meet like minded people, particularly if you don't live in one of the major cities.

Have you heard of an organisation called Regard? It is a voluntary group for gay people with disabilities and medical problems. It has a website and a face book page. The link to the website is below:

regard.org.uk

Best wishes,
Kevin.

(edited to say, sorry I didn't realise links weren't allowed, will know for the future).

cebeem

Not gay myself but...........................................
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The best friends in my world are! and my circle of friends is a big one and I would say 50% fall into the catagory ....The longest friendship goes back 30++ years..!
I forget they are gay!!! It never crosses my mind.
No different to having who friends work in television or.... have 3 three children!
My friends are my friends who ever they are....they care for me and I for them.

Congratulations on the civil partnership Kevin!

elainebadknee

No Tony

My gaydar is pretty good on sight but not through messages.....I mean lots of men now moisturise and like home DIY/decorating....

My excuse and im sticking to it...

Elainex

elainebadknee

Hi Kevin
Nice to hear from you and congrats on your civil partnership....

I do find when i look for gay topics they are indeed male orientated, maybe im not looking in right places...But yes its hard enough finding someone without having the added limp n stick!!! Ive never been a scene goer either, been in a few gay pubs (1 in huddersfield and two in newcastle) and they were okay but like any other pub at weekend, crowded and music too loud...

I will look up regard page, thanks for that....Im not a facebooker however, dont even own a touchscreen phone (shock) however do quite fancy the apple i-pad...

Elainex

elainebadknee

Well no why should it matter who they bed with, people too often are labelled and its wrong.....
I wish i had a more of a dieverse circle of mates but dont......

Elainex

tjt6768

As Depeche Mode sang.. People are people...

Lol

Hope we're all doing well today.

elainebadknee

Ah yes nicely put......Trying to think of a song title to come back at you but one brain cell has sparked out....

Its a lazy day today, and it bloody cold here...

Elainex

suncatcher

Hi elaine
I can identifiy with the loseing your identity bit. I was going through that faze. I have made so many changes met new people and have lots of new hobbies and feel part of the community. I feel i am with people who accept me for me. Its been a long road for me and i fought all the way. All id say to you is keep fighting and searching try new hobbies social groups which will find you the people you should have around you. Positive people who see you for you. Look out for new opportunitys. Elaines new life is out there believe me. from joanne

elainebadknee

Hi Joanne

I kind of get where youre coming from and commend you for doing what youve done. Ive never been much of a hobby gooer, turning up to new places on my own, im not that confident.
I would say my big thing in life was i re-trained back in 2002 - 2006.....I enjoyed it but now my skills are redundant as was a typist and there's not much call for that kind of work in anywhere ive looked....
I do swim once a week and enjoy that but as for other hobbies...Well i used to enjoy walks but cant anymore, love animals but couldnt contemplate going round a zoo or wildlife park just now....I used to like going to occasional football game, again cant do that.....I even went to a voluntary society to try and offer my admin skills last year but they wanted people in some sort of organisation who would be committee members and take a part in running the branch...I didnt want to commit that much, just wanted to offer my time (about 8 hrs a week)....
I do appreciate your message but if youre not confident in the first place its hard enough going places on your own and can make it seem worse...

Elainex

tjt6768

Don't you worry Elaine, we'll have your confidence built up on here for ya luv. Owt we can help with we will..
Haven't seen you in the chit chat section, you should go join in, cafe is a great place to start.
I'll be popping in later, will make you a cuppa!

Tony

elainebadknee

Hi Tony

Was on there asking about putting Sol on here in a pic but someone answered speaking pc double dutch...I didnt get it...
Ive never been a real confident person, guess it stems back to being at school in godawful short hockey skirts (and not the legs to match it).....and waiting to be picked, in the end was the bookend of the group.....
I did even swap e-mail addresses with someone on here and we emailed for a bit then it stopped, dont know why but havent wanted to ask....

Ooeer!!!!

Ps..Make my tea with soya milk, cant have normal milk n one sugar!!

Ta

Elainex

suncatcher

I don't see my self as confidant at all. I have been landed in a new situation arther and life was turned upside down totaly. My rhumy told me to get out more. I had problems getting son to play group when there was in too much pain to enjoy it. I wasnt chatty or confidant still not. I went somewhere with a creche and did courses groups like art writing which have not done since school. Kids stopped the hobbies as i was too tired after work or day with kids to know who i was.
Loss of job and more free time since he is at school im finding out who i am again. I am doing a course at the school to get to know more moms which is the area im not confidant in. I am enjoying being me not somebodys mom or an ill person. This new ill person engulfed me for a while. The new hobbies fit with what i can do now. I am meeting new friends who are at last accepting me for me and am slowly getting me back. i keep trying thats all anyone can do. you keep trying and looking maybe a course to update skills for you might build your confidance. dont have to be for a job mind. Just for fun. good luck i wish you well

tjt6768

Hi Suncatcher, Elaine.. Hopefully posting on here and chatting to all the different folk might build up some confidence in you that will help in the real world..

Tony

PS, if you'll talk to me you'll talk to anyone

elainebadknee

Hi

Well it makes sense that if you were going places with your son and felt not apt to be able to keep up. I think its maybe different if you have kids and then there is more things like you say with a creche and other mothers to be able to mingle with.
I admire what you have done really however like I said I think it is a confidence thing to some extent. I am the sort of person who has always not been confident and things such as being bullied at work, dressings down from kendal consultant hasnt helped me. Having said that i have always been the sort of person who didnt like even meeting a big group in a crowded venue for fear of not seeing them/missing them.
I have looked into a ECDL course but that doesnt start in my area again till new year.
I appreciate all comments...

Elainex

elainebadknee

Hi Tony

Thanks and i do appreciate all people who are friendly and chat/return messages to me on here.......I guess it just part of me, cant change it...

Elainex

tjt6768

You're more than welcom Elaine, if I can make you giggle or smile then that's fine, doesn't cost owt to be nice eh? Lol


Hope you're ok today..

Tony

elainebadknee

Hi Tony

Well yes you have made me smile n giggle with your accounts of punk youth...I read another post of yours however that made me feel like a moaning minnie....You said your oh had been diagnosed with heart failure and here's me moaning about a gammy leg....

Im having a good day ta, been up since 8.40, early for me......Starving now, its gotta be lunchtime surely!!!!

Elainex

ironic

Hi Elaine,
Don’t worry you are defiantly not on your own when it comes to technical thingy’s. :? How is it going with your new consultant? Your next appointment is not far off is it?
Lv, Ix

elainebadknee

Hi I

Im next seeing my new consultant on 6th December and hoping its a positive appointment...Id like to start 2011 knowing I can get an operation and get on the road back to some sort of life again....

Elainex