So on this beautiful sunny day I am feeling in a most terrible, angry mood. I just had a phone call from my GP surgery to explain that the doctor will not issue my mtx (I have ordered some tablets while I wait for someone to come and show me how to inject) because I am overdue on my bloods. However I had an appointment with the hospital three weeks ago, and the nurse there offered to do my bloods while I was there to save me a subsequent trip to my GPs. I asked if the results would be shared with my GP and she assured me they would. I explained this to the GP surgery but they were very snotty about it, and so now I have to go and have another blood test.
This is such a small trivial thing really, but it has really made me feel so utterly fed up! I am sick of lack of communication between the hospital and the GP, and between the hospital and company dealing with my move to injections. In the next few weeks I have a number of hospital appointments and I just really want to press the 'pause' button. Up until now I have faced my RA with a very positive attitude but I think right now I am just having one of those rare moments where I wish it would just all go away.
I have a part-time job in retail and yesterday I worked a six hour shift which does not entitle you to a break. I had been on my feet for the whole six hours, my feet were sore, my knees were aching. My boyfriend usually comes and pick me up if my finish time is after 6pm, I only live a 15 minute walk/5 minute drive away so not that far, but yesterday he decided to walk down and meet me as it was such a nice day. A nice gesture but I could've cried, I was so looking forward to just getting home and sitting down as soon as I could. No matter how hard he tries he just never ever seems to understand the effects of this condition. I am lucky because my RA is quite well controlled and I don't suffer too badly, but that doesn't mean to say I am pain free, and the fatigue is the worst and I think he just thinks I'm a lazy bones!
Anyway I feel much better having got that off my chest. But I think I'd like to keep RA on 'pause' for just a little bit longer. Anyone else ever feel this way? :-)