Time I wasn't here

vonski

Hi Everyone

Well what can I say, I've been laying low all day, felt a bit stupid after my post yeterday! It was a moment of weakness, madness or both and I'm sorry to have put it all on you good people. I will be back under control, a bit like a mad dog

I really appreciate your posts and cried my eyes out when I read them. It came as a surprise as I didn't expect more than a couple or replies so thank you so much. It means such a lot.

Thank you too for your pms, I haven't read them all yet but I will and I will reply to each one of you.

I'm also going to get my act together and make the Dr tell me why RA has been on my notes for years with no treatment? Whenever I ask they just say they don't know.

Thanks again, hope you are all wellish

Love
Vonski x

noeltone

Hi Vonski nice to see you back hope you got my pm dont feel stupid about posting I do it all the time hope you get some answrs about your RA treatment love Chrisov

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Hi vonski
thank you for posting again.
please dont feel stupid about post, alsorts of stuff gets us all down at some point in time and its better to tell someone than act on it.
it also helps others to talk about how they feel when they see some one else bravely admit they are finding things hard to deal with.
hope you get meds sorted out at least if the pain is under control that one less thing to deal with.
glad you feel a little brighter today, you have lots of friends on here, i know i dont really know you but have been thinking of you all day.
all the best
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lesleygraham

Oh Vonski what a relief.
Reading the replies one thing came across clearly, you are very highly thought of on this forum. Peoples concerns are genuine and I, like others, are delighted to see you have posted again and are feeling a little better.
Take care and hope things get better for you.
Les

frogmorton

Hello Vonski!!!!
So very very glad to see you posting!
Please don't be embarrased at all - we do all feel down and we are all glad that you felt you could tell us and we can PROVE to you how valued you are!
As Cris said if you don't feel strong - borrow some of ours for now (((())))
Love
Toni xx

jeannie2

Hi Vonski,
Was so pleased to see your post ... glad you're feeling a little more upbeat. As the others have said, there's no need to feel awkward - everyone here understands what you mean. Isn't it just great to know you're luved!
Can't think why all these medics have to be so secretive - I told one 'I live in this body ... no matter how out of shape it is'. Thump the desk, luv, you'll get the support you need then.
Have a decent day and as someone said, stay 'wellish' ... what a great way of putting it!
(((()))))) Jeannie S

elnafinn

Dear Vonski,

Whether it was "a moment of weakness, madness or both" as you said, it was time it was voiced. Things have been brewing and simmering for such a long while now and to have written it down and pressed the submit button was one of the best things that you could have done and I feel relieved that you did so. No doubt you do too. This will be a fresh start for you. We are all supporting you, you start getting answers to all those questions that you are entitled to have answers for and begin to get all the help you should have now and have had years ago. When you feel vulnerable, imagine us all behind you, backing you up.

Sending you lots of love, huggies, courage and strength and please remember me to your husband and son.

Elna x

elnafinn

jeannie wrote:

Hi Vonski,
Was so pleased to see your post ... glad you're feeling a little more upbeat. As the others have said, there's no need to feel awkward - everyone here understands what you mean. Isn't it just great to know you're luved!
Can't think why all these medics have to be so secretive - I told one 'I live in this body ... no matter how out of shape it is'. Thump the desk, luv, you'll get the support you need then.
Have a decent day and as someone said, stay 'wellish' ... what a great way of putting it!
(((()))))) Jeannie S

Hi Jeannie

Vonski uses the word 'wellish' and it is a good way of putting it!

Elna

sharmaine

[Hi Vonski

I'm glad you've cheered up and taking some postive action.

My arthritis was only diagnosed two and a half years ago, but according to my 'life insurance' when they were doing a medical check it had been diagnosed way back in 2001 when I had the first x-ray and blood test. My doctor never told me. I moved home and the new doctor must have seen this on my notes and told me that I didn't have sciatica (which was what i was told i had) and she thought it was arthritis. They make mistakes just like anyone. I could have played hell and made a fuss but I've done the suffering already and just don't have the energy to have a go at anyone.

Keep posting and take care of yourself. Treat yourself to a massage or a nice meal out!!!

Well I had better go - it's roast lamb for Sunday lunch and my husband is drooling! It's his favourite - followed by rhubarb crumble (rhubarb from my garden) and custard. Yum. Once I'm tidied up I'll be relaxing in front of the tv.

Have a good day.

XX

Sharmaine

quote="vonski"]Hi Everyone

Well what can I say, I've been laying low all day, felt a bit stupid after my post yeterday! It was a moment of weakness, madness or both and I'm sorry to have put it all on you good people. I will be back under control, a bit like a mad dog

I really appreciate your posts and cried my eyes out when I read them. It came as a surprise as I didn't expect more than a couple or replies so thank you so much. It means such a lot.

Thank you too for your pms, I haven't read them all yet but I will and I will reply to each one of you.

I'm also going to get my act together and make the Dr tell me why RA has been on my notes for years with no treatment? Whenever I ask they just say they don't know.

Thanks again, hope you are all wellish

Love
Vonski x[/quote]

yesmeducky

Vonski,
So pleased to see your post. Take good care.
Heidi x

woodbon

Its note stupid to say how you're feeling, its a big step towards feeling better again. I'm so glad to hear from you, and it sounds as if now, having got over the obvious shock of no treatment, you're taking control and will get the doc sorted. I would'nt want to be in his shoes! :shock: Seriouslly take things easy and go and have a long talk with him when you feel up to it. With treatment you may feel a lot better shortly. Keep us posted. Love Sue

suncatcher

phewwww glad to see you posting again joanne

elnafinn

Dear Vonski

You remember I sent this to you before?

Hugging feels good
Dispels loneliness
Overcomes fears
Builds up esteem,
(Wow! They actually want to hug Me!)
Slows down ageing
Huggers stay younger longer
Eases tension
Fights insomnia
Keeps arms and shoulder muscles
in good condition
Is ecologically sound
Does not upset the environment
Anyone is eligible, for a hug
Is portable
Affirms physical well-being
Is energy efficient, saves heat
Makes impossible days, possible
Makes happy days, happier

I send you now a tender, hug and hope that you pass this hug on and get many hugs back. You certainly deserve them.

Night, night, my lovely, tomorrow is the start of a new week and a new Vonski.

Lots of love
Elna x((H))

ramummy

(((HUGS))) Hang in there.

Ju xx

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just saying hi

smillajasperson

Hi Vonski
I really hope you are feeling a little better since you made this post. You were so kind to me when I joined a couple weeks ago, and I can see from all the other posts on this site you are a comfort and inspiration to many, so I just hope we can all offer you the love and support you need in your dark moments to get through this.
Lots of love Smillajasperson xx

joyful164

Hi Vonski

I was just going to get ready for bed and then thought I would do one last posting to you to see how you have felt today.

I have read your latest and it seems that you have come out of your dark feeling. You don't know how pleased I am for you. The other day, on the way to see my consultant, I was in so much pain and my OH was driving. Every bumb in the road was killing me. I said to him. If they find that they can't do anymore for me, I don't want to be here, just like you said to us the other day. I have gone through several dark periods over the last 4 years, but I somehow pick myself up and think that I'm luckier than some, especally my DIL. I just keep myself busy busy and keep plodding on. And do you know, I still won't take the Clonazepam. It makes me feel worse.

I hope you have started sorting out your problems, they always seem bigger when you are in pain. I know.

luv
joy

vonski

Hi

Thanks all again for your posts and good wishes. I do feel much better today. I have had a fan blowing on my feet all day and although they are freezing the pain is an ache now so much more able to deal with. I rang the Dr. today but no appointments, Monday is a bad day, and can't make any in advance so just have to keep trying.

Elna I do remember that poem, it was almost a year ago, I have it saved Hey Elna do you think I should copyright wellish

Joyful sorry you haven't had such a good day, hope tomorrow is better.

Sharmaine any rhubarb crumble left

Honestly thank you all you are brilliant people and make this world a much better place.

Love
Vonski x

elnafinn

Dear Vonski

I hope you get through to your Dr today. Hope your feet are still bearable today. Keep that fan going. Yes, I think you should copyright "wellish" - it is an excellent word

Don't forget, you are brilliant too and make this world a much better place. Keep on, keeping on.

Loads of love and hugs
Elna x(())

debatat

Hi Vonski, I am glad you are feeling a little better. I hope you manage to get a docs appt today. I LOVE the word 'wellish', you should def copyright it!! Hope things continue to improve for you. Take care

Deb

kathbee

Hi Vonski

Glad to hear you are doing a little better, and hope you soon
feel 'wellish', a big wish of mine for you.

Hope you get thru to the docs and get something sorted and
quick.

Love Kath

skezier

Hi Vonski,

I am glad your feeling a bit more wellish (when you copy write it how much you going to charge us to use it? )

I'm just off for a afternoon kip......... I must not........ :shock: but (((((((((( )))))))))) love Cris xx

jeannie2

Hey, Vonski .... is there any room for MY feet under YOUR fan - mine's costing me a fortune. Mine are like balloons. The wheel on the lecy meter's red hot! If I send my feet over to you we can split the difference on what I'll save on my 'lecy bill.
Take it there's no rubarb crumble left!
(())))
Jeannie S

wendylou

vonski wrote:

Hi

I've been fighting posting this for ages but thought I'd give it a try and hopefully get rid of these demons.

For years I've had to manage without meds, Drs. don't want to prescribe because the don't know exactly what's going on. I did have injections but then the same thing happened. I have lived with excrutiating pain for over 18 mnths. Seen various Consultants and non of them can agree on on thing. Now waiting to see a Rheumy for the first time.

On top of this I was diagnosed with cancer last year, op went wrong and had to be done again. I ended up in ICU, my parents and brother wouldn't visit, we'd fallen out over my gran's will so said they didn't care. I have now recently found out just how close I was to dead, and it was very. I feel now like it would have been better if they had just left me too it. Like my brother said he wishes I'd just get on with it, well so do I.

vonski x

Hi Von so sorry about what your going through, familys hey they don't know the suffering your going through because they are not the one thats going through it if it was them it whould be a different kettle of fish, but i know its hard but try and keep your pecker up love, i wish i was there to give you a big hug i can't but im'e sending you a big cyber bear hug can you feel it just remember you are loved on this wonder site, hope to hear from you very soon, lots and lots of love Wendylouxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

dachshund

Hello Vonski.
You are a very kind and loving person. you helped me when i was worried.
think that you did not say wrong things to your family they said the things to you they said it all you did'nt so dont blame yourself.
we all care about you and love you.
joan xx