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chris7

Hi Cris

Just leaving buckets of hugs and hope for you. I hope you are resting as much as the animals allow. I have been thinking of you.
love
Chris

skezier

Hi Sally, Rose, DD, Louise, Barbara, I, Julie, Ange, Annie, Wonky, Tilly and Chris,

Thanks for all asking , twas a bit heavy..... Knew it might have to be but thanks to a timely kick from the pocket that almost certainly wasn't a sheep I did talk to him......

It was good to have his take on it ll and sister (word that would be deleted)head is wrong they don't do them down the big hospital now cus of ward closures and lack of money! Good eh?

The drip has worked, he doesn't normally see me so soon after so he really notice the difference but understood I don't want to have to feel so bad with it again. He thinks if I book it (and I must tomorrow) then he will see me in December and if I don't need it we can cancel it. If i do need it he promised me he will try and get a midline... or turn a blind eye if I d happen to find a passing vet Hell I was I &I trained maybe I could do my own

He went oer what worried me, he tried to understand how I had problems with the sister, he doesn't get it which kinda helped me a lot. He still calls me pleasant and ha upped the mtx for one last hope on my bones.

There isn't a huge amount of rotation in one wrist and the other is only behind it cus I favor it as I'm right handed so clobber the left. Full of fluid but forgot to as about any of it being drained.

Can work out why the drip and the pregabalin have fallen out so bad, got to get some small ones and go up slowly and he wonder if it was cus of being stressed out my head? Its kinda settling but am only on 150/200 2x a day and was on 600 so long way to go yet.

Neck is a grey area, he never quite takes away all hopes! See he does understand you need a door even if its bolted.

Forgot to ask most things cus the drip took for ever and it gets so heavy. I must remember to see about wrist xrays next time.....

Sally I am glad your knee is improving and hope it will go on doing so for a long time ((())) xx

Rose sending you up a beach near Falmouth with seals ((( )_)) xx

DD not sure preservation is need but will bare it in mind for the next drip..... I will so lucky to not need it.... Top up for your hug bucket flower xx

Louise the guy is so kind! You talk to him cus he is so good at just listening and handing you tissues (Annie I forgot my own) He is also very good at helping even if you can't see how he can..... Will be thinking of you Friday and you better let us know flower. ((())) and so many hopes. xx

Annie sorry I just disappeared, my heads getting there flower but sometimes its easier to run and hide. Rowan has gone really woolly now cus its so cold eh? xx

Barbara and I, you two are always there an I do appreciate it. Buckets of hugs and hopes coming to you. xx

Ange its still a very good balnkie flower...... Somethings I take care of and he doesn't hold of! Will pick up the new one mind.... I do still have Jan's and she doesn't have 'my' horse either Wish someone had had Blossom today mind... she kicked one of the lenses off the car! :? xx

Julie I am doing enough worrying flower so lease don't. Some flamingo seed and a ((( ))) xx

Wonky a whole 2 weeks worth of slurps..... wow.... just what I needed Could she pop down and guard the car before it gets any more teething scape's, dents and broken lenses :roll: It was too good for me even 2 weeks ago but now its so obviously mine xx

Tilly that deer best not have learned what that sheep can reach......She was so bad tonight but have warned her mummy got reinforcements for a bit of next week and that means chiropody will succeed xx

Hi Chris,

Ho you doing flower? Leaving you a ((((( ))))) some cream and saffron with a side plate of pasty and hevva! xxx

My thanks again to you all and I promise to get my head back soon.

lindalegs

Hi Cris,

I so glad he listened to you and was so understanding. It must have made you feel good to unload on him. The drip worked so that's good news too and must have made it a little worth what you went through. The sister (swear-word) is still a problem I can see that and maybe next time you go in you can arrange for her to have a weeks holiday :?

Anyway no need to reply to this just wanted you to know I'm keeping up with your news.

Love Legs XX

ironic

Hi Cris,

Well a raspberry to the sister then. December appointment is not so far off and may be you will remember to ask about the wrist draining then. So the MTX goes up again it just might do the trick this time. Fingers crossed for you.
So now you have a one eyed car! That’s gratitude for you. Hope you have a better night tonight.

Loads of hugs,
Love from, Ix

skezier

Hi Legs,

Oh she is such an asset when your not feeling well She can't off load me though so it will be my pleasure to tell her if need be!

Kinda thinking she just like to go to a different ward..... for good..... I did play it down but even with that he wasn't impressed cus she did really upset me. I don't upset externally very easily and though she said she was thinking out loud it didn't really help

You stay warm flower and sending you a ((((( ))))) love Cris who is about to go into hibernation till after January to avoid the next drip xx

Hi I,

I am a bit upset at what they are doing to the car.... It honestly was really tidy and it is a nice car to drive... they would argue they haven't changed how it rives but they may have made sight modification changes that would make selling it a bit harder..... and also best get some tape for the lens eh?!

People often say they will leave their cars in the gate cus of the lodgers and I always say they wont hurt it...... some don't believe me and think I know why If they do the tyres I will get some teasy cus i haven't looked to see if its even got a spare ((((( ))))) xx

dorcas

Hiya Cris,

way to go with the rheummy!

what a lovely understanding man. hold onto him cause they're a rare breed
not got the words to express how happy I am for you..but will this do?

love and happy ((((Hugs))))

Iris xxx

salamander

hi Cris, good to hear you managed to tell your rheumy how you feel. I forgot to show mine my knee last week, one gets sidetracked so easily and there's so much to cram into a short time.

Sounds like you had a very good appointment though and for that I am pleased.

Could ask ring and ask him to do the wrist separately? December seems a long time to wait for that. I went to A&E for my knee and the rheumy just came down and did it. Well, not just, took ages for some reason, he kept running off to see other, more interesting, patients.

It's good to hear you a bit more optimistic. I bet it's cold down in Cornwall though. Chilly up here but a bit protected by all the buildings.
Take care Cris.
love S

skezier

Hi Iris,

He is so good and i know he is a one off cus i see some very bad ones

I feeling happier that she can't throw me back...... she might refuse to have me in there but she can't make me a SEP! Now if I could just make her one

He is going to try another way of a midine and that should shut her up with luck... I am going to have ring and book it...... I guess..... and I also want the care plan thing sent in advance so I know just what she is changing cus she says I can't use the normal one now. She really doesn't want me there and her and I agree on that at any rate...

Going to shot up the garage for some cdm.... you want some? ((((( ))))) xxx

Hi Sally,

I think you have to have t colder flower..... we don't often get minus here but we do get the gales (though not one just now) and its so open and damp cus we get a lot of rain and mists and fogs... oh wouldn't the TB love that on their slogan?! They used to have come to sunny Cornwall but think trading standards got them.....

I was ages in there and really he couldn't waste more time on the bones but did have a quick look at the wrists and upped the mtx though I kinda think its not going to work.

I didn't have a list Sal xx

bertyboy

Glad you are back , and hopefully got a bit of good out of it , hugs to you x

dreamdaisy

Morning skezier, well, that sounds like a good appointment. A mixed bag (aren't they all?) but there is a light on the horizon. Book the drip today, it can always be cancelled if you don't need it when the time comes , and remember his promise of a mid-line , I am positive that would make the whole thing so much easier for you. I have no idea why the preg and drip collided so badly this time but these meds do do weird things to us, don't they? I sincerely hope the head is coming together, what have you done to your car? Or was it a member of the ark who damaged it? I missed that somehow - sorry. Roll on Sunday, eh? Take care, thinking of you. DD

barbara12

Hi Cris and Phew...I am so glad you have a good rheumy,I can only imagine what thats like I aint found one yet i have just been watching homes under the hammer and they are in Paranporth...it really took me back.
If I win the lottery will buy somewhere down there and help with the sheepies...I can sit on them for you.
Lots of hugs coming your way ((((((()))))
Love
Barbara xx

skezier

Hi Berty,

Given up n the bones now flow... makes it easier actually. Did it with my lumber long ago and this lot they learn we have to share this useless body so for every day they claim I shall claim one back! Weird kind of attitude eh? ((( ))) and a cuppa. Cris xx

Hi DD,

Well the midline thing isn't certainty and without it she has her platform.... with it I get iller, no tissueing and its right into your jugular so more effective straight away but def more ill..... Maybe I wont need it?!

The car became a foal teething ring like my old one was and then got a huge dent in the back end a couple of weeks ago when it turned into a horse scratch post and the lens was a foal who stood there yesterday just kicking it :? As yet no more damage. They sort of done me a favour though..... I was thinking I should sell it cus its so expensive but i wouldn't get my money back now so I will just have to do more sales xx

Hi Barbara,

Oh the sheeps aren't too far from Perranporth but its so expensive isn't it? We kinda got it back now and well its a lovely village though a few too many hills Used to surf there a few years back but have always proffered Porthtowan really....... You move there you might get a lodger xx

annie_mial

Cris, I'm so glad it was a useful appointment...and I do know what you mean about disappearing!

Does that mean you are on the top dose of MTX now? I do wish it could work well for you, 'bout time something did. You were naughty to forget about the wrists, you will have to remember them sooner or later.

I'm hopeful the midline will materialise this next time, I think it would make all the difference to you........as you say, you would feel more ill, but the whole thing itself would be easier and less stressful.

It's been very cold here, first time this year, but it's supposed to warm up again for a couple of days........'tis the cold that gets to me. I don't mind the rain, but frost and a cold wind will send me into hibernation stat!

Annie

frogmorton

Hi Cris

Well there you go...

bless your lovely rheumatologist. At least you have him -one great medic - partly makes up for stoopid nurses :x

I have recorded homes under the hammer...I shall enjoy that one tonight

Now what has happened to the car?? I was expecting' a ride in a decent one on Monday??!!! foals eh?

Looking forward to cuddling the sheeps

Love

Toni xx

dreamdaisy

Ah, members of the ark are causing havoc, are they? Does the car drink fuel? I think its size is of use to you but usually the bigger the beast the more it consumes. A conundrum - what to do for the best? You haven't had it that long, have you? If it is good to drive and the size suits then there must be a way around the cost of running it. No idea what, tho. I'm a little ray of sunshine, aren't I? Take care. Thinking of you. DD

skezier

Hi Annie,

Flower I might go off on a ramble....

He said its the top dose but its not with some people cus I know they have 25 and this only 20...... Its not working and the arms are really starting to cause me grief.....

I am sick of it flower This way of life is also getting harder but at my age it would be anyway so the shift bones aren't the only reason eh?

They would be happier with a midline..... I have managed to have 2 before and even they only just scrape to the end...... I have too many valves and too small vessels but once its widened the jugular well its a more effective way but each time I have been so ill..... I don't want it Annie and I know I sound like some stupid child!

have made the date though cus I did ask hi what would happen if I didn't have it....... Maybe when I see him end of December he will agree I don't need it..... Hollow laugh there! I already got chilblains and be honest I know I will have to go in January.... Its bothering some... does it show?!

Rowan has gone horrible fluffy..... I will send you some pics cus I got him posing the other day He is hanging on to him cus he is a nice little lad..... He wants to see what he is like as a yearling. he won't come here though but I shall keep a quiet eye n him

You take care flower and leaving you a ((( ))) and a hope your doing ok? xx

Hi Toni........ tisn't as bad as the last one It doesn't smell of what ever that was and it doesn't leak... yet!

You saw it just after I got it and it doesn't look quite the same I could kill them if I am honest! xxx

Hi DD,

Its nice to drive, its comfortable its got heated eats and a decent heater...... Its not worse than the old one on petrol but its a big type car and the tax is huge and the insurance is almost double what the old one was..... Its damaged now so I wouldn't' get money back.... I would like to keep it cus I can drive it a distance and get out just stiff... the old one... OH DD never get a low car! I lie the heated seats and its got a half decent stereo.... most important... a mate f mine is giving me a beat box.... and Just cus its you ((((( ))))) Cris xx

annie_mial

Yep, for the record I'm on 25mg.......maybe you could push it a bit?
Been on top dose since March.......could be (in spite of the non-arther blips) I've had the best summer going for several years.
Pretty sure I'll add Fibro to the mix soon, though.

I've had the feeling for some time that the wrists were bothering you more than usual. Can't think why you shouldn't be allowed a tantrum now and again.......as you say, it would get harder as you get older anyway, but you have the odds weighted so much against you.

..........and yes, I can see January is worrying you already!

Mmmmm, I don't mind a fluffy Rowan, not if it keeps him warm......and please know that I am sooooo jealous of Toni (although what I could do in practical terms I don't know - maybe give them a glare?)

Love
Annie

skezier

Hi Annie,

You know you would be most welcome! 3rd world it maybe but its ok to visit Sometimes living in it isn't so easy

Oh bless them they are just so nice! I got little job for them... Toni and I ill supervise However the hooves do need cutting and I really will find it easier with some help on one of them... she is a real genuine heller! Stampy of course the others are lovely... she is too bu she is also in trouble and guess that's not helping me eh?!

They will make a fuss of them all, sorry flower. Rowan and Primmy are just such wonderful security blankets Better than Jan's blankie Flower is just the best comfort rag. They will gone soon..... I will miss them.....and worry till they are back in the spring!

So much to hay

Oh Annie the wrists...... They are still strong but have lost their movement.... I actually have trouble taking money now :roll: I took it so much to heart when I was told to cover them up cus they are getting miss shaped and swollen..... People just don't think do they? That was a friend as well :shock:

He
wont go to 25 ..... for him 20 is the top dose.... What comes next? I guess an add in? Wont get funding and be honest I think my wrists will just get eaten..... Worries me flower, well just now what doesn't....

Oh rambling again....

I will send you some pics and a short vid of your boy! Love and a ((((( ))))) Cris xx

dreamdaisy

Morning skezier, I am guessing you had a rough night (I have seen the times on some of your messages.) I hope you did manage some sleep in the end.

If you don't want the mid-line don't have it. That bit at least is fairly easy! As for the rest of it - oh hun, I don't know. You is one complicated lady, that's for sure. I guess there is going to have be some kind of trade-off with the lifestyle - it is getting so tough now physically for you, and surely that is only going to cause more damage which is not a good thing. I know that you are very determined, very independant, quite stubborn and very proud. These are all sterling qualities until they begin to affect your health. There has to be an answer - damned if I can think of one, tho. A perturbed DD.

skezier

Hi DD,

You been talking to pain clinic doc?

I also have a very good veneer....... Long ago my life fell apart the back impacted very hard and I was laid up for months. In hospital for just on a month and well i made a choice then...... Has it helped? The bones definitely not and I can't pretend it has. He gave me a list of things I would never be able to do again....I used it as a check sheet, DD I was too young and too mashed up back then. There were somethings I couldn't do but the rest... he was wrong!

Has it helped me mentally? You bet

I am finding things hard just now cus I still getting head rushes from the top dose of pregabalin and that's the dose I need to be inside a manageable level...... So just for now I struggling a bit but I also have in my defence not had a easy ride recently.....

I have to ave the midline if anyone will give it me cus without it I am in for a week of being moaned at and I seriously am not joking....I even got accused of moving my veins! Yeah like I can do that! They also cannulate into the swelling on my wrists and hands and flower that hurts!

The midline isn't something I can refuse flower I promise you what ever it does and how ever ill I know I might be I can't cope with being moaned at any more..... Its just not good to have them moaning, bringing in paramedics to line you and getting insulted and DD this all happens! It gets bad and I end up feeling so low and since mind set comes into the drip if you go low you are very, very, very sick for 4-5 hours non stop and that's not good for me or the bones.....

Sometimes I am ok with it and just sort of get mellow and kinda stoned The headache is instant, tablets wont touch that but since my head is normally so busy its sort of deal with a bit if drifting out of it and I often spend the day with the sheep.... Hell i am sounding insane :shock: I'll shut up now!

You look after your self and even with the veneer gone your description I couldn't really argue with... maybe that what I truly got to work on eh?!

Did sleep for 4 hours and have already done the water with not crushing A ((((( ))))) and a hope your doing okish flower. Cris xx

Oh DD I got a plan B but have to ride out the recession first

dreamdaisy

I know you have a plan B, and it's a good 'un, but we have to wait for the politico's to work thro their plans that go from A-Z first!

I find it amazing that the staff are so rude to you. The temerity of that is astounding - they are supposed to be offering a service to someone who is - like it or not skezier - ill. Aren't they buggars, as Rob would put it! I have to go and talk to my mum now, but I will come back with a fuller reply, here or elsewhere. Oh: thank you for Benjamin! I did put a note on the poetry sticky but in case you haven't spotted it was lovely to read it again! DD

annie_mial

OH Cris, that nursing staff! They are still in the dark ages, they must be. I remember having my tonsils out as an emergency and got moaned at the next day by the nurse 'cos I couldn't eat sausage and mash! I was 18 then and that wasn't yesterday
I was prescribed milk stout while in hossy then - that was the start of a long love affair between me and Mr. Mackeson.......or Mr. Guinness if necessary.

Annie

frogmorton

[Oh bless them they are just so nice! I got little job for them... Toni and I ill supervise However the hooves do need cutting and I really will find it easier with some help on one of them... she is a real genuine heller! Stampy of course the others are lovely... she is too bu she is also in trouble and guess that's not helping me eh?!

Ooooh! :shock:

Mind you one of them IS planning to be a vet....


good practice eh?

speedalong

Hi Cris, thanks to the sheep for the grubby fleece - 'tis mighty warm if a bit smelly ...

So the lodgers are playing havoc with your car and as for your body ... I'm sorry about the wrists moving up the list.

Life is hectic here, but thinking of you even if I'm not posting.

Speedy

marion1952

Hi Chris

I'm not posting much at the moment as my fingers are painful, but just to say I am keeping up with reading your posts and hoping that you have an OK weekend.. I know what you mean about cars with heated seats - wonderful!!

Take care

Marion x