You would have been proud of me (mostly)....:-)

skezier

Hi All,

Armed with the sheep munching through the hamper with Val yelling and Joan trying to help stop them... With Wonky and the cattle prod and a million feet poised ready to kick me.....

I did talk to him.....

H asked me how I was.... bursting into tears seemed the best answer I could give :oops:

Recovering composure with you all helping i told him this isn't exactly life.... I feel dead, my legs are so heavy, 90% of me seems to be swollen and hurting, the lumber has gone AWOL again, the neck is hell bent on semi parlaization and the wrists and arms are horrendous.....

He examined the feet all discolored and odd.... he agreed the tablets ain't doing it but didn't want to put me through that horrible BS for no reason....

He looked at the knees but he doesn't know it they are pa, oa or both but clearly arthritic... as are the hips, the spine is shot and then i forgot to mention the ribs.....

The arms are a combination of the pa and tendinitis.... its the tendinitis thats making the swelling and tenderness down the bones and he has at last agreed to send me to OT

Wrist splints and elbow clips might help and well I have the borrowed splints and one is really comfy... the other was till all this swelling came along....

These ones will be made to measure and well being here they might be just be made form matchsticks and sticky back plastic but they will be mine

The T rang this morning....

At long last eh pain clinch can fit me in for 2 facets and a ton of botox as well as medrone and triggers ....

tomorrow morning so please help again cus I some bad at going and if they sedate me again please someone cover my mouth so I don;t burble the same kind o garbage as I did last time :oops: :oops:

We were talking about sheep..... I can get a little carried away about what they think..... i do know them well though and might just be right.....

So someone bring the gag!

Its good they have given me little notice......I get worried about these cus out of all the bits that hurt the back and neck are both well able to take me out and reduce me to a useless imbecile who has to crawl to do an electric fence.... thats a bad day for sure and this lot of jabs can only help.....

I have to say this feels endless and without you lot I would just chick in the towel.... can't let you lot down now can I?!

Be a long morning though and linguistically it might be a bit hard..... too short notice to arrange much to help but what ever happens this will help cus I had the botox a few times and it can't argue with it .... so far....

Just want you all to know I do thank you so much! You have no idea how hard the days are getting with the endless cold the endless flare and knowing nobody it going to do more than they are doing to treat me... except small things like the drip :shock: :shock: i never thought i would ask for that one back

Hope your all okish and leaving tea and ((((( ))))) and will remove the sheep val and try and repair your hampers....... Love and seriously thank you all. Cris xxx

frogmorton

Hi Cris

So very glad to see you on and l am very very proud of you - you dun good there girl.

I think l get it....jabs tomorrow and need to be there for that yes? Keep you from bellowing. Check!

The arms adding tendonitis to teh arthritis now? check!

the circulation thouigh...still got to put up with tabs for that?

Splints and clips to be referred for - well done !!!

I am totally proud of you my lovely

Overall successful and sorry you cried, but maybe it was needed!

Love and hugs and tea and chocolate

Toni xx

and a Prrp!!! From daisy-cat

lindalegs

Well I'm glad you got it off your chest and you talked to him. The tears would just make him see how distressed and in need of help you are.

I'll be with you tomorrow Cris with the rest of the calvary who I'm sure are on their way right now. I shall just be in a tiny corner of your pocket but I'll defo let my presence be known if you need it.

Take care Flower and a bucket of courage and hugs and a huge gag!!!!

Lots of love, ((((( )))))

valval

am so proud of you well done. not botherd about the hamper they can have it. you did great girl (why is it we cry in front of them) sorry they got the sandwiches they do like them . val

skezier

Hi Toni,

No my friend the drop is back..... they will phone and tell me when but cus its so hard to get a line in they will do the five days into four..... :shock: That will also be one day less of the BS and thats got to be good eh?!

Yep 'allegedly' tendinitis can be added but I wont have more than 9 conditions don';t forget It think thats now 5 or 6 on hold but the tendinitis is CUREABLE At last one that can be got rid of

Talking to the nurses today... it seems the new brooms are going to run it as an even tighter ship.... abandon all hope f funding then..... :roll:

A huge purrrr and burrrp back to Daisy and watch those emails cus Bre is on the warpath... too many e numbers in the hamper ((((( ))))) and a cuppa and will do the pm's soom I promise. xxx


Oh Legs please bring the gag Its fascinating though to watch the xrays and see my real enemy with in

I did just let him know this isn't life... we talked about the pain relief and beyond becoming a total all out zombie there isn't much more I can have but the jabs Legs are 5 months over due and thats going to make a big difference.

Thanks for coming and least for once I said I was 3 below dead..... No brave face and no hope of any actual treatment but a dam site better palliative care than of late

Hugs to you and Knew Knee who I hope is behaving? Cris with a casual enquiry to are the grand kids ok and behaving? xxx

Hi Val,

Will make you a new hamper for the morning... it was the padlock that did it I don't often say how bad I feel... well maybe you let let me but the real world doesn't and I find it almost impossible to say but today.... Val today I had to cus I am that rough and that far below I had to eh?!

Now what can we give them in tomorrow's sarnies

Hope your ok flower? Hugs and a cuppa xx

mig

Would a big bar of chocolate do as a gag? cryings good i did it in front of my gp and he finally took me seriously.with you all the way Mig

bertyboy

well done Cris , tears are good at times , i am so pleased that he listened to you , i will be in the pocket tomorrow with many others , if you start gabbling i will just shove another cake in your chops , love and well done hugs XXX

skezier

Hi Mig,

Oh a bar of chock yep that you can bring as long as you promise to share it with me

Flower I am sorry you felt that desperation... sometimes it just gets to you doesn't it?

Hope the gp's help has done some good for you now? ((((( )))))_ and just keep me quiet cus hell do I burble Cris xx

Hi Berty,

As I remember I was on about Wish being like Shaun..... the pain doc said to shut up cus she couldn't inject me while she was laughing.... it was bad... so yep anything to keep me quiet xx

traluvie

Hi Cris,

I had a right lump in my throat when i read your post..
You go girl..
Glad to hear it is all out in the open and now he knows how you are really feeling..
Don't know anything about the meds you mentioned but whatever they are i really hope they help you so you can have some comfort..
Will be with you tomorrow.. how about a lollipop to suck on to stop you from screaming...
(((((X)))))

Ankyspond

I am very proud of you and know exactly how you feel, keep it up smile, cry, scream always here for you. Xx

skezier

Hi Tracy,

oh a lolly.... thats going to help cus floe when sedated do I burble very badly.... ummm actually I do it too well

Its all just types of steroid and muscle relaxer flower and worth remembering for those knees if you need to though they use cortisone first but that stopped working back a long.

ta for the hugs and a bucket of them coming back to you. Cris xx

skezier

Hi Anky,

Sorry i didn't see you there...

Flower today i was honest for the first time and look how much he has moved in the care bit of palative

I hate the big jabs so thanks for coming . ((((( ))))) and you got any more wine... that will keep me quiet xx

Ankyspond

skezier wrote:

Hi Anky,

Sorry i didn't see you there...

Flower today i was honest for the first time and look how much he has moved in the care bit of palative

I hate the big jabs so thanks for coming . ((((( ))))) and you got any more wine... that will keep me quiet xx

You keep being honest it seems to be working wonders! As for the wine, sorry all gone but gonna have a small (ha ha) Malibu will send you one of them. X

mp1952

Hi cris

Just to say glad that you were able to say exactly how bad things are for you. You must be absolutely shattered tonight,

Hope that things go OK for you over the next few days.

Marion xxx

lindalegs

Just sneaking back to say 'grandkids' are okay but one has been quite poorly - we're hoping he's better now.

Good luck again for tomorrow.

Love,

skezier

Hi Anky,

Oh well it will have to be tea then xx

Hi Marion,

I am shattered actually and can't believe I asked for that hideous drip again Its the only that works though.....

Hope your doing ok and leaving some smaco's and a ((((( ))))) xx

Hi Legs,

Oh bless him I really hope he is much better and well on the road to being him self again.

A ((((( ))))) and ta muchly flower. xx

elnafinn

Thinking of you Cris. You will be ok, they are gonna look after you, you brave girl. Crying can work wonders sometimes with the medics. If it helps any I started a teeny weeny blub when told it would be in my best interests to have the neck op. Chin up, I am proud of you.

Hugs
Elna x

tjt6768

oh Cris. I almost missed this. My wonderful signal like my energy is waiving.. But I'll be up and ready to report for pocket duties as ever mi dear
It sounds silly to say but I'm so glad that you had the outburst.. It had obviously done the trick. Good luck with the blue peter splints.. Mine work wonders. Great support for the hands and wrists..

Ra says that he'll do the botox if you like, he has a gentle paw when not fighting crime.
Thing is, between us, he's out on the lash with Silvio Burlisconi tonight so I'd politely refuse just in case :shock:


Best wishes hun.

daylily

Hi Cris,

so glad things are getting sorted for you.
You have put up with it all for a long time so not surprising you broke down.
I will be thinking of you
Take very good care
x

PS Sorry can't do pocket duties, don't think the crutches would fit in.

skezier

Hi Elna, Tony, Ra and Daylilly,

Thanks for your messages... wound up as hell here....

I know these hurt but they also help and sometimes they help quite fast...

he neck has been less paralyzing with the botox cus the muscle spasm is so bad now a days it pulls it all over./..... I don# see why it can't be sorted but they keep saying its unusable..... :roll:

I kinda think yep and thats why it needs doing

You all have a good day and I had best go and see if I can remember how to drive Cris xx

Ra will see you in the theater and be kind to me

dreamdaisy

Hello. :oops: It's me, a very ashamed Daisy. :oops: I missed this, completely and utterly missed it and I am so sorry. :oops:

Being stoical is what gets us through the day. The determination to ignore stuff so we can get on with other stuff is necessary, laudable and completely commendable. It can, however, become such an entrenched habit that it turns into something that actually harms us when we find ourselves telling people that we are fine when we are not. For social contacts that social lie is passable, but for our doctors? No, no and thrice no. I am so pleased that you told him, warts and all, how things are and I hope that all the things he is now arranging for you will help.

Hugs, Bourbons and Custard Creams to the girls, barks, purrs and quacks to the rest of the Ark, a big hug and a two smidges of love for you. DD

suzygirl

Hi Cris, I am so pleased you finally have some good news to help you through. Lets hope the jabs and OT make things more bearable.

Sending you hugs and positive vibes x

tkachev

Cross the mostly off of your title will you? I'm always proud of you.I will be with you today soothing your brow Cris.

I hope it all goes well.

Elizabeth x

stickywicket

I'm proud of you. Always was. Always will be. You can weep 'til the floor's soaked for all I care.

barbara12

Hi my love this is the first time my dongle has allowed me on..cant type to much or it does a runner....but I am with you.....sending you loads of good vibes and love xxxx

valval

just popped in to say sandwich spread in sandwiches today see if they like that the one with bits of veg in .
am thinking of you . a am sure you know how proud of you we are ((())) val