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  • barbara12
    barbara12 Member Posts: 21,281
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    Oh Cris
    Like lalla says you really are surrounded by love, so dont forget that....thinking about you.
    Love
    Barbara
  • roses1
    roses1 Member Posts: 1,850
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    Hi Cris,

    just sending hugs ((((((hugs))))))
    hope you get some decent sleep tonight!

    take it easy
    Rose x
  • dreamdaisy
    dreamdaisy Member Posts: 31,520
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    More hugs and love from me too. I am thinking of you, very much. There is no need for you to post, OK? We will all still be here when you are ready, whenever that is. DD
    Have you got the despatches? No, I always walk like this. Eddie Braben
  • hileena111
    hileena111 Member Posts: 7,099
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    Morning Petal
    Hope you are having a reasonable nights sleep.....and are feeling a little bit better
    As DD says....no need to post until you are good and ready.
    We aren't going anywhere :lol:
    Sending more ((((())))) and love
    Hileena
  • Poppyg1rl
    Poppyg1rl Member Posts: 1,245
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    Hi Cris my lovely,
    Just sending you more love, hugs and light as always. (((((()))))) Xxx
    'grá agus solas'
    'Love and Light' translated from Irish. X
  • valval
    valval Member Posts: 14,911
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    cris you were right injection was not to bad you forgot to say if rhummy was a sadist he would spend 10 min finding the most painfull area lol but went well. so thanks for your suport but can i send sheep back now it eating me out of house and home wont touch the grass that needs cutting grrrrrr. (((()))) thanks and rest as much as you can val
    val
  • dreamdaisy
    dreamdaisy Member Posts: 31,520
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    Hello my lovely. Hugs, love and buckets of whatever you need and/or fancy are on their way. DD
    Have you got the despatches? No, I always walk like this. Eddie Braben
  • bertyboy
    bertyboy Member Posts: 1,860
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    hi Cris hugs a bundle and wishes for so much , i do hope you are resting and your mind is easing , as well as the body , love and hugs xxx
    I know i am a lady ,all life is a journey xx MAY xx
  • julie47
    julie47 Member Posts: 6,041
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    Morning Cris

    Just sending more gentle hugs

    Love from juliepf x
  • skezier
    skezier Member Posts: 11,333
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    i think i might be broken.....

    every camel has its last straw and i might have met mine.... but thankfully i have the employers and they make me get up and function as best i can and occasionally i remember to chuck sticky and Joan some tea and food :wink:

    however on the plus side....

    the honorable wishtiria aroches her 12th birthday.... and have taken her off the metacam cus it didn't seem to be doing much. the jabs do the liquid doesn't possible cus of the rumen.....

    got her on a load dose of glucosamine and additives and its doing more than the metacam did and clearly less harmful to her kidneys :grin:

    the monster is becoming a real character......

    i got a call from the gp and the anemia has gone down to 5.something though i don't know if thats good or bad to be honest but she has put a script up for me and if i can get enough energy i might even go and get it :roll:

    the neck is bad... the armchiring the other might finished it off a bit....

    tis only pain and be honest against the emotional pain its nothing.... oh life sucks eh?!

    i promise to buck up, sleep better, stop replaying things i can't change and feed sticky and Joan more though they have been very good and not yelled too many protests.....

    got visitors next week end.... be nice but i should be doing a whole load of cleaning up but i am struggling to do even half an hours work just now. this blacking out thing is no joke......

    right enough wallow and shall go get the two off the roof to help wash down that grotty dirty mare who thankfully has taken her loss better than i have.

    i really do think i might be broken just now but promise to try harder. love hugs and thanks to you all Cris xxx

    oh penny i so hope your family are ok now? hugs to you and chew sticks to harry. xx

    Val glad it went well and yep they are all masochists :lol: i hope it will really help you flower. the lumber one has eased mine down a bit so thats really good but the neck.... we don;t talk about the neck just now :wink: xx

    better make a big pot of tea and plan a certain girls 12th birthday.....
  • dreamdaisy
    dreamdaisy Member Posts: 31,520
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    You have had a terribly tough time, my lovely, and yes I suspect that you may well be 'broken' at the moment. At the risk of sounding trite I am sure you will find your spirit, the 'skezier-ness' that gets you through the challenges of your life will come back. Grief knocks not only the stuffing out of us, but the heart and soul too. Twelfth birthday eh? Now, that is summat good and worth celebrating. DD
    Have you got the despatches? No, I always walk like this. Eddie Braben
  • skezier
    skezier Member Posts: 11,333
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    hi DD,

    grief is a bottomless spiral at times.....

    it was horrible and well i didn't want to be here for the removal yet there i was.... on roll on something good happening :lol:

    getting a lamb in the spring... recent events have shown me i really need to..... I can struggle another 12-13 years i think....

    Sticky the lamb can be a forum mascot :wink:

    they get colic they get cured :lol:

    DD my spirit is over the meadow just now and maybe it ill get a bit of healing while its there eh? playing in the surf and running free in the soft meadow grass with old friends.

    sound like a right lunitic.... my mother was one so why not eh/! hope your ok and yep december the 15th.... if she she could just stop being so lame..... hugs and tea and if you see the missing chick give me a shout. xx
  • whalewatcher
    whalewatcher Member Posts: 90
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    Your spirit is too strong to be broken Cris but its been bruised by this last grief so give it time to heal.
    Let it enjoy the meadow and the old friends & know that you will recover & enjoy happier times in the future.
    And if you see a whale in the surf say hello from me.

    Hugs

    Val
  • dachshund
    dachshund Member Posts: 9,314
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    Hi Cris.
    how are you feeling today.i hope you are not into much pain
    i'm sure we would have more energy if we eat animal food.
    thank you for the food sticky and i will go back on the roof now.
    take care((((((((cris))))))))
    joan xx
    take care
    joan xx
  • dreamdaisy
    dreamdaisy Member Posts: 31,520
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    All healing takes time, Cris, but some takes more time than others. You are in the best place for that healing to happen, you have the Ark and the girls around you, near you, with you, and via your computer you have us. DD
    Have you got the despatches? No, I always walk like this. Eddie Braben
  • stickywicket
    stickywicket Member Posts: 27,764
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    A very good friend lost her beloved horse to colic. The sweet palomino cob who taught me to ride died from colic. I hate colic.

    Well, up here on the roof me and Joan are doing fine. Don't worry about us cos Haz is taking good care of us.

    Just give yourself time and space and a bit of all the tlc you dish out to others.

    What's Wish getting for her birthday?

    These are for you, not Wish, but you can pass the odd one on if you like. (Actually, they're all a bit odd.) ((((( )))))
    If at first you don't succeed, then skydiving definitely isn't for you.
    Steven Wright
  • ironic
    ironic Member Posts: 2,361
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    Hi Cris,

    Oh the lovely Wish is due her birthday soon, we will have to get knitting again to replace the socks and scarfs for her. :grin:

    I hope you manage to go and get the script this weekend but in the mean time maybe you could sample some of wish’s meds...well if they are working for her.. :wink:

    A new lamb! Well that will be something else and doubling up as mascot for the forum, brilliant. I can hardly wait to see what you will pick or will it be more like they will find you???

    Cris, it really has been a horrible time for you and I really do hope that things begin to turn a corner for you soon.

    Thinking of you,
    Hugs as always,
    Lv, I x
  • bertyboy
    bertyboy Member Posts: 1,860
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    hi Cris , things hit hard at times , especially the unexpected , but we are all still here xx, a birthday is a mile stone hope you are going to spoil her , cant wait to hear more about the forum mascot barrlylamb , hugs a bundle xx
    I know i am a lady ,all life is a journey xx MAY xx
  • skezier
    skezier Member Posts: 11,333
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    I dd this a long time ago... Joanne (hi flower and hugs) challenged me to see if i could do a poem.... :lol:

    i just want to leave it here again cus i honestly don;t know how to thank you.

    its been a very bad day and i feel 10 below dead and yet you are all here helping and basically holding me up....

    i don't want to keep missing things and don't deal with death too well at times and i am so sorry cus you lot get the brunt of it...

    anyway this is a kind of thank you


    This Forum.

    When I first found this it was all I had,
    To keep me tethered as I was quite bad,
    I didn’t know such things were there,
    I didn’t know there were people who care,
    I came with my life crashing round my ears,
    I hadn’t been well for many long years,

    It had got to me and was pushing me over,
    To go to the meadow all covered in clover,
    I found the site, and I did my first post,
    I became visible and no longer a ghost,
    In time some of you and I have spoke,
    Sometimes serious and sometimes we joke,

    But I will never forget what it was like before,
    I found this site and I couldn’t take any more,
    My bones aren’t good and other things too,
    Then You lot were there to help me get through,
    I guess I am saying thank you all so much,
    Though how the help works I don’t know as such,

    It used to seem hard to continue the fight,
    That was before I found you all and this site,
    Now I go on and have plenty of cope,
    And sometimes even a small bit of hope!


    Val saw your whale... a minky if he will do? leaving hugs and tea with bucket of thank you my friend. xx

    Joan flower here you go a bucket of sheep nuts each and a cuppa... yellow bag sheep nuts cus mine are picky, picky, picky and wont eat any other brand as happily....

    got a bit of an after taste though :lol: of course i have tried it :lol: love to you and Sue xx

    DD you used my name :grin: flowr grief is not always easy... i still have this kick off switch that i don;t seem to shut down if it hurts enough..... some i am sad over and some kick it back.... teg somehow has hit a big button but i got over it once... in the box and nailed the lid on and the bins all seem open but they are also easy fill to a degree cus i learned how back along and am trying to just shut it down.....

    tea and a hope you having a decent time and well extra hugs for when your mum visits.... xx

    Sticky oh flowr i hope this has' trigger that one for you? colic is evil eh!! i lost my less beautiful mare to it as well.... its an evil thing but thankfully rare.

    i will check he is feeding you ok though Joan is now on sheep nuts as a experiment.... some of us might also be on a horse powder for joints... but apart from wish i wont say who :lol:

    i will get there flower just at the mo its all very raw. guess i need to get harder eh?! tea and a best [[[]]] from the dog in the costume :wink: xx

    I i going a long way for this ere lamb as well :wink: i know what i would like... i really do but equally i might just as easily come back with one the same as i could have got just down the road if she chooses me :lol:

    i not sure how we are gong to do this... only that we are and might have to see if anyone here has names.... or might not cus sometimes a name comes but i must never call a sheep Hope again..... that was a bad move in the end.....

    she died the same day as they stuck me on palliative care.....both my real and my own hope died that day....... so not calling her a name i use so much :wink:

    i do love Breagh cus she is and it so suits her as well... better name than i was going to have cus all i could thing of was 'that;ll do;..... :lol:

    mind I that sheep is going to but me one of these days.... can see it coming and just hopes she is gentle..... :lol: its something to look forward to eh? love and hugs and tea with the side dish we probably shouldn't have :wink: xx

    Berty on that cam out the blue like a bolt of lightning..... he was a poorly lad at birth and i think it is connected but it doesn't help cus he and i had kinda bonded, grot pony and all.....

    i just hope next year will go kinder for us all.... tea and a hug xx

    again i apologize for the one handed stuff.... the left side is still playing up but thankfully the right has eased up a bit..... i must get that script on monday... i couldn;t face going for it today.
  • elnafinn
    elnafinn Member Posts: 7,412
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    Dear Cris,

    Sending you lots of fluffy hugs and I am thinking of you. It is a poignant poem, yes, hang on to that hope, do not lose sight of that.
    Love
    Elna x
    The happiest people don't have the best of everything. They just make the best of everything.

    If you can lay down at night knowing in your heart that you made someone's day just a little bit better, you know you had a good day.
  • dreamdaisy
    dreamdaisy Member Posts: 31,520
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    Morning my lovely, what a wonderful poem, the sentiments you expressed match mine about AC: without a doubt it has changed my life. AC should be thanked for here far more often than it is: it's very easy to criticise yet somehow we forget to say thank you on a regular basis. I for one shall try to do better on that front.

    I find the whole name thing very personal, I dunno why. :roll: Even when I am talking on the phone to people I know from here I more often than not use their forum names! I've done that with you too! Daft, innit? Anyhoo, hugs and love a-plenty for you, and please say hello to the girls from me. DD
    Have you got the despatches? No, I always walk like this. Eddie Braben
  • dachshund
    dachshund Member Posts: 9,314
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    Hi Cris.
    i'm sorry you are in so much pain i'm sure if we eat animal food we would have more energy i dont know about being healthy.
    take care ((((((((cris))))))))
    joan xx
    take care
    joan xx
  • hileena111
    hileena111 Member Posts: 7,099
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    Hi Cris
    What a fantastic poem.....its so true for most of us I'm sure
    Hang on in there.
    You'll get through this......
    Sending loads of copes your way
    Love
    Hileena
  • stickywicket
    stickywicket Member Posts: 27,764
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    Thanks for the poem. There’s a raw honesty about poetry that is so touching. I’m very glad you ‘became visible’. I’m not sure how the forum works either but I know it does.

    Don’t worry about raw nerves. A good friend’s beloved horse died from colic and the sweet-natured palomino cob who taught me to ride did too but it was all a while back. I just hate colic in horses. It’s virtually impossible to either prevent or cure it.

    So, Joan & I are on sheep nuts now, are we? Is that with or without Slurpy tea?

    Oh and please don’t ‘get harder’, skezier. You’re OK just as you are.
    If at first you don't succeed, then skydiving definitely isn't for you.
    Steven Wright
  • julie47
    julie47 Member Posts: 6,041
    edited 30. Nov -0001, 00:00
    Hi cris

    Thankyou for sharing your poem it is brilliant.

    I am sorry cris that you are suffering so much and that you are not sleeping properly I really wish there was something I could do or say to help.

    I have made some special sheep cakes for wish's birthday and only hope she will share them with breagh. They have the special nuts that sticky and dachsund like inside so....they might like a slice with a cup of that slurpy tea :lol:

    Sending loads of hugs (((((()))))) and a cuppa and a big hope that you feel better soon.
    Love Juliepf x

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