Cris (Skezier)

frogmorton

Good (wet) Morning Everyone.

I hope you are all well.

Cris has asked if l would pop a little something on to let us all know that she hasn't 'disappeared'.

She has two things going on at the moment.....the visitors having gone

One is that there has been a bereavement in the family so family stuff going on and no-one lives anywhere near Cris with all her animals and responsibilities.

The second is that her MTX cold (as she calls it ) is back. By the 'eck does SHE sound rough :roll:

Hopefully she will feel better very soon and get back on to see us all.

Love

Toni xx

mig

thinking good thoughts for you.Mig

Poppyg1rl

Thanks Toni for letting us know,
Thinking of you Cris, you've so much on your shoulders :sad: sending love, light and hundreds of hug buckets your way (((((()))))) x

stickywicket

Love from me too, skezier. Hope you're soon feeling better.

Best keep away from the forum though. The last thing we want is a methotrexate cold epidemic. Can you see the news headlines???

Thanks for the update, Toni.

traluvie

Thinking of you Skezier..
Wishing you well..

valval

cris was missing you so thanks for this message sorry about it all thinking of you and hoping you get all sorted soon hugs in bucket loads val

constable

Hi Cris

I would like to send my condolences to you and your family, I shall be thinking of you all. No wonder you haven't been on recently, totally understandable.

Also I do hope that you start feeling better very soon. Sending you plenty of big comforting hugs.


Karen xx

tjt6768

Please please pass on my best wishes to her.. She's missed a lot on here.

Tell her I'm thinking of her.

skezier

Thanks Toni and for letting people know as well. xxx

Hi Mig, Poppy, Sticky, Tracy, Val, Karen and Tony,

Bless her Toni rang to say that some of you had been asking about me. I am never sure how i deserve it but thank you for the care and kindness and well this last 2 weeks have been hell.....

The visitor.... well.... I have been told repeatedly i could cure my self by walking faster.... oh yeah and what makes them think that?! Well they cured them selves that way.....

Ok but you didn't have arthritis.... no mine was worse..... yeah thats why every test and every examination produced no results that were remotely unusual..... and so it went on.

Even got the you should sell up, get rid of the animals and go into a bungalow thing thats like a red rag to a bull...... Bit tiring isn't it though to have all that for 12 or more hours a day......

Thankfully they got out of here alive and that could have been a close run thing if there had been much more for sure!

Then the death...... some have cans of worms and for me there will never be bigger. Already there is agro and rows have erupted but that was always going to happen and amazingly its not coming my way just now... I knew humble pie and not biting would pay off one day..... just can't believe its going to hold till the funeral after its will be safe again......

Sorry my heads all over the place. i don't know how to feel much in any direction at the moment but least it wasn't a 'surprise' as there had been times the last 3 years where they had said this is it and we are talking days.

You all take care and thanks for caring. Sorry the can of worms this time is so big they have become dragons! Cris xx

angel1

Just popped in to do update on Legs, but couldn`t go without leaving you all the love in the world.

Have replied to your email, and will be in touch. Stay strong, my little Cornish Piskie........Ange.x.

skezier

Hi Ange,

Thanks my friend.... I shouldn't be posting cus you know what there isn't one happy memory, just nightmares.....

Time to shut up and sorry.

Hey left you some fly fast and give Legs a hug please? One for you as well ((((( ))))) and didn't my girl's smile well?! Add sheep wrestling to my cv Love and a pasty Cris xxx

elnafinn

Dear Cris

I am sorry to hear that life is not being kind to you at this time. I had noticed that you were absent from the forum.

I am sending you gentle hugs and strength to carry on.

Love
Elna x

barbara12

Hi My love
Sorry I have been away on hol...with a rubbish dongle...
Cris you so deserve our friendship, and I am sorry that life is shift for you,
At least you will get a little peace now the visitors have gone....they dont seem to understand you one bit....you hang in there my love...you have all of us pulling for you...
Take care

jojo03

Hi Cris,
Just wanted to add my best wishes to you and hope you feel better soon. You're always one of the first with a kind word for anyone on here and you're well regarded for it.
Hugs,
Jo x.

dachshund

Hi Toni
thank you for letting us know about cris.
Hi Cris.
i'm so sorry about all your problems.as for the person who stayed with you she should not find fault with somone nice who is letting her stay in her home and i expect you gave her food.
you know people like that their arther is always worse.
you take care((((((((cris)))))))).
joan xx

mp1952

Sorry to hear you are having a particularly rough time cris..

Hope things resolve without too much 'fighting'


Marion x

tillytop

Cris I was so sorry to hear what's going on for you at the moment. Don't know what I can say, other than that I am thinking of you loads and sending lots of ((()))s your way.

Lots of love Tillyxxx

PS - thanks Toni for the update.

speedalong

Hi Toni, thanks for keeping us uptodate.

Hi Cris, sorry you have a lot of family stuff to be dealing with. Hope the mtx cold doesn't hang around too long. Take care.

Speedy

ironic

Hi Cris,
I am so sorry to hear of a death in your family. It doesn’t matter if you were expecting it or not it still is a shock.

I’m sending buckets of fortitude and a sleep draft to you.
Well I am so proud of you. I don’t know how you have managed to keep your temper and actually let your visitor go in one piece.

Hugs as always,
Lv, I x

valval

cris you have bee there more than once for me you are a special lady and we are lucky to have you take care of your self leaving you more hugs val

skezier

Hi Elna, Barbara, Jo, Marion, Tilly, Speedy, I, Val and All

You truly don't know how much I appreciate the support and care. You really don't know how much I need it just now.

I got a lovely pm today and well it was so kind cus this ones hard.

I had a very lonely and unhappy ( and terrifying at times) childhood..... This has opened it all and blown it all over the place cus its my father who has died.

Today is the first day i have been visitor free since his death and its just really hit me.... not cus i loved him, not cus I remember his kindness but cus he destroyed me as a child and maybe I haven't got over it as much as I thought....

i did forgive him years back and did deal with it but actually not so sure I have just now......

He is actually my earliest memory... he gave me a sparkler while I was still in the pram and I put it through my foot.... kinda remember that and the pain

He did worse and I was a messed up neglected and I genuinely think hated kid.... worthless to the core and some of that must have been my fault so I have tried my whole life as near as to be the kind of person the parents weren't.....

I had issues when mother died..... we all do I know but these were not the normal issues.... she really did both hate and betray me. She was mentally ill and thats the ultimate get out clause but this has also triggered some of that and its dealt with but never goes away.....

I'm rambling and I am sorry cus I just needed to say some stuff and in the real world there is nobody to say it to cus my father was a high flying journalist and had one hell of a public persona..... anyone I know knew his public image and that was fine tuned and very convincing......

he was also a drunk and got very nasty but he and mother should never have met, really were wrong to marry and certainly were not committed to their kids... except the boys and the one who died.....

hey they would never have got aways with it now a days but back then.... they had money, both had good jobs and were respected so nobody cared they had a kid who displayed advance neglect and was so with drawn she hardly existed.....

i am rambling too much and I do leave a sincere apology.

bad day and I did say the worms had grown to dragons. Still I shall get my shield and slay the b....... once and for all :roll: Be about time eh?!

Promise to shut up. Hugs to you all Cris xx

Oh I the tolerance was pushed to the limit especially at the cliffs at Landsend... i mean people can slip xx

valval

cris do not think you were rambling on if you can not share with us who you going to tell i think you are so much not the same as your parents who should have been very ashamed of them selves and even if you had come to terms with things it is bound to come to the surface at this time but remember you are not on your own you have so many good true friends on here who love you for who you are a very special strong person who takes time out to care for others val

barbara12

Cris I for one feel honoured that you call me one of your friends.....and friends are here for whatever it takes....you really needed to get that out...you should be so very proud of how you has a person have turned out.
We are always here for you, and you have your true family right there with you.
Sending all the hugs you need and strength to get you through this...and you will..(((((()))))
Love
Barbara xxx

magenta

Dear Cris,

I'm very sorry to hear about your Father. It must have been horrific for you as a child. I always assume that everyone has had a happy childhood and I'm at a loss at what to say to you now. It's good to get things down in words and I'm here to listen (as everyone else will be) and support you. You know that if you ever want to get things off your chest, I'm here for you.
I don't always reply to posts cos half the time I don't know what to say-I'm not very good with getting my thoughts across to people. You've always been there for me, so now it's my turn with you.

You take care and I'll be thinking of you,

lots of love,

Eileen xx

Poppyg1rl

Hi Cris,
You are one of the kindest, most generous, loving people I have ever had the fortune to speak to. You are so wise, compassionate and have a fab sense of humour, despite the pain you are constantly in.
You know what my lovely Irish Grandma said "A cow in a field can give birth...but the raising of a child?...that takes a parent"
The messages of love and support for you here Cris are testament to the person you are, in spite of the tragedy your childhood was.
Sending you love and light honey Xxx

skezier

Hi Val, Barbara, Eileen and Poppy,

Thanks for your messages I do appreciate them, I really do.

I kinda lost it there...... I did know this one might be hard cus he had been ill on and off for the last 2-3 years and it was getting serious. You can't drink like that and get away with it for ever i guess.

I sound callous now eh?! Just the same you can't.

Eileen I so agree with you that every child has the right to be happy in their childhood but my parents either wouldn't or couldn't do that bit... however i was blessed with an incredible, very Cornish to the point of nationalist nan who i spent enough time with to know love and safety as well so it wasn't all bad just when I was with the parents it was hell.

hey guess who I take after, man that woman's influence was strong Still is However impractical

My step mother said my father loves me..... I think not but..... he did mellow and i have forgiven him cus the hatred i carried only hurt me, didn't touch him..... Just the junk in the head isn't always quiet and I feeling fairly unwell just now, the bones and joints are rebelling so its all harder and I am doff on the ramble again.

I am stuffed physically but see the gp on Thursday and just maybe she will do something about this cold thing.... I promised a friend I would ask for a chest xray cus well few things make me think one could be wise.

It s the mtx and it was the sulfa before but the reaction to the sulfa was much worse cus it wasn't just a continual cold. This one is just reinfection on a 5 day turn but is making me feel iller each reinfection... its not helping

I will take some of the strength you have so kindly given me and will survive cus what ever my parents didn't do they made me who i am... they didn't mean to for sure but i made a choice and i remain glad i did when I have contact with my siblings.

Your right Barbara this lot are my family and well they kinda rub along well enough The girls are now part sheared... nearly killed me and bre looks like she has had a very bad case of moth attack Her ladyship remains her normal smiley regal self, of course

Val I have been useless at supporting others for a min but do think about you all just the same and your right I do have a lot of friends here. I am so glad I found this here place cus you are all such a good lot of people and when the chips come down you are so good at throwing in some water wings.

Poppy a bucket of light and hope for you too flower.

Right time to fight for bed space with a ton of manky cats I really would never get rid of no matter how nice the bungalow might be What a stupid thing to say to me..... I always see through a commitment.

You all take care and thank you all again. Cris xx