Cris (Skezier)

skezier

You lot are so brilliant and i so thank you cus I am struggling (sticky them chips are hard to swim in ). Mentally I am part shot with worry about Minda.... I honestly feel like I might be wearing a target.....

I must phone the SM..... I hate that bit cus she knew hm very differently to how I knew him..... At least he and I had called a truce about a year ago.... it could be worse.....

I am dreading Minda more than the doctors tomorrow Mind I think I have back tracked from what I was originally going for..... Like you do.... especially under strain....

I feel so unwell which don't help Everything hurts, most joints seem to be swollen but under the fat I Semite have 'acquired' (Loise I wonder if your right about pregabs....) its hard to tell and them the oesophagus... less said about that the better but hell continuous heartburn gets tiring eh?! It might be whats causing the pain in the rib cage and sternum but the pa is just as likely..... I feel like some fool is cutting me in half actually....

I hate this bone stuff....

Got to get some clothes.... I am thinking jeans and a body warmer just wont do it or Frankie's boots... hell i don't know what my feet will make of shoes

All of it has to be dog hair proof... and hay cus this is a working car... that hopefully will make the journey......

Life.... don't talk to me about life..... love the paranoid android thats seems to have possessed me

You all take care and thank you all so much fr just being there. Big pockets tomrow but if I do get round to mentioning why I originally made the appointment... close your eyes..... xxx

stickywicket

Definitely with you tomorrow, skezier - all the way, to hell and back, whatever it takes. No chips. No waterwings. I promise. Be strong.

tillytop

Evening Cris

I'll be with you tomorrow too and thinking of you loads.

Lots love and ((()))s

Tillyxxx

bertyboy

hi Cris sending big ears for the DR to listen to what you need to say ,and a memory pad for you to help you remember to tell him , will be in the pocket first thing xx

barbara12

Cris I will be with you tomorrow...try keeping me away....sending you all the good vibes I have.
Take care....have those sheepis still got there lovely haircuts.. :eek: :

hileena111

Hi Chris
I'll be there tomorrow...is there still room in your pocked everyone thats squashing in????

Love
hileena

magenta

Hi Cris,

Best of luck for the drs tomorrow, I'll be there too,

Eileen xx

roses1

Hi Cris,

Good luck tomorrow!
Reporting for pocket duties i shall have coffee cake in there so dont squash the pocket

Rose x

Poppyg1rl

I will be with you in spirit Cris, I'm thinking positive thoughts and vibes and praying hard for you my friend.
Love and light as always and a couple of buckets of tea and choccies XXX

ironic

Hi Cris,
I will be thinking of you tomorrow and I hope the appointment goes better than you think.
I’m sure the phone call will be fine and you will find it easier once the conversation starts. Sending you a full wagon load of resilience and comfort.
Hugs as always,

Lv, Ix

skezier

Hi Sticky, Tilly, Berty, Barbara, Hileena, Eileen, Rose, Poppy, I, Lynn and All,

You know I an staggered still at the help and support you give me... i really don't know ho i deserve it but hell am I glad you do.

I do have to broach a subject in the morning.... If anyone has pa that effects their ribs and sternum do you get referred pain.... I have discomfort and my left lung is kinda feeleable...... hence asking for an xray........ then there is this lump i have been ignoring 3-5 months or more......

It started on the sternum but now has grown..... over to the left and by a good 4" see I do have to say and as Legs worked out long ago once I have told you lt I wont let you down......... possibly...... and there are ethics possibly pending as well.....

Against the back drop of all this joint swelling, fathers demise, the thought of standing for too long (I have polished the crutch up and its not as bad as it was got to be about the only person who has rusty crutches Its all kinda got to me.....

I did say about it in a phone appointment a while ago and they were sure the mtx would sort out the ribs etc but so far it hasn't and well long ago I did have a small amount taken out and yep I know I shouldn't have left it this long.....

The pa isn't under control, the oa is also active in the rib area and I got that costra what ever its called as well. I love playing the ostrich but if i don't mention it, at least in passing, you all have my full permission to kick me as hard as you like.....

Chances are I am right in my assumption...... side glance at the stupidest habit I have......

Gong to ask her to get some blood out as nobody seems to be able to except the rumo registrar. Mind she uses a syringe cus as she said she can drag it out that way With the phlebitis in both arms... well I can't wait

How long does that last is another question I must ask

I shall have the big body warmer on... slight hint of sheep about it but they also will be in one of the pockets...my bet is it will be the one Rose is in cus boy does her lady ship like icing

You all take care and thanks again for all this help and support cus you might have notice I kinda bit broken... need the super glue and silage tape again

Will take the courage but may need the kicking...... ((((( ))))) to you all and Barbara the girls are half done for real and Bre honestly looks like she has had a run in with murdering moths..... Her and I make a good pair Cris xxx

Oh forgot to say its my assumption its a mix of the bone thing, the shift in the intercostals and hormonal...... we shall see if i can over come the embarrassment and face the tests they will invariably do cus it hurts already That's a good sign eh?!

bertyboy

morning Cris i have just warmed my feet and hands so nobody gets a shock getting in the pockets , we will all be nuging you if we thing you are forgetting to mention things you know you must love and hugs and comfort creams xx

valval

morning cris am here with hamper full of goodies to keep us going this corner will do for me hope you do not mind have fetched pillow with me so might have nap till we get there have your list of questions so will nip your ear if you miss any out so be warned if ear starts hurting you kow who it is good luck positive thoughts and hugs by bucket load val

tillytop

Morning Cris

I'm in the pocket too - and I quite like the "hint of sheep" in here With you all the way.

Load of love ((()))s and extra large bucket of courage.

Tilly xxx

whalewatcher

Hi Cris
Hope it all goes well & you get answers to at least some of your questions. I'm there with you in spirit though if anyone has spirit its you - enough for yourself and the rest of us.
Hint of sheep sounds nice but don't tell everyone or it'll become fashionable & all the 'celebs' will want some.
Love
Val

suzygirl

Hi Cris, just wanted to let you know I am here with you and Izzy has popped along as well. She is very curious about the sheep!!!

(((hugs)))

barbara12

Hi Cris
I do hope it has gone well for you, I saw you was up most of the night...try and rest when you get home..
You take care my love

skezier

Hi Berty, Val, Tilly, Val, Suzy, Barbara ad All,

Well tis all sorted.. they are doing nothing The lumps are lymph glands and cus of the inflammation, the pain is the mix of the oa and pa in the ribs them selves and the fibro (which I wont have I got ) with the costralitis thing.....

Nothing to be done, though cus i feel so bad and the circulation so sluggish she has upped the circulation tablets ... oh and given me an mtx book... kinda think after so long without one .......

She managed to get some blood out as well.

Told me the pain meant i must try the patches again as it would help and gave me new predgabs, one tablet is 300 so it will be easier and she thinks it might possibly fine tune the effects......

The sheep loved sharing their pockets with you all and found Izzy equally fascinating..... her ladyship was raised a cat initially but as she grew she became a bit sniify toward them and changed into a dog... never sure what she thinks she is now

Should have posted earlier but really had a bad night with pain, cramps and spasms as well as the heartburn (no cure for either cus they wont take out the oesophagus end and stomach top till they have to.... She did say its not as simple an op as I think it is... much more of this and pass me a knife and we will find out Anyway i did the armchair duty thing so sorry i have kept you all waiting.

Monday will be a nightmare and after that the heartburn might ease down again.... well it might Hugs and tea to you all and many thanks. Cris xx

Oh Wish 'wanted' to apologize for eating all the cake, crisps, pockets, custard creams and Val's hamper... she did muter something about not meaning to but her hooves were most definitely crossed.....

Poppyg1rl

Oh Cris,
Let's hope the 300 pregab will help, good that she got blood out, but oh my goodness Cris, how bad does the oesophagus have to be before they do something?. As for the ribs, I have that too, my Rheumy called it costichondritis and it's utterly awful...one of the worst pains ever.
My friend, I send you all my love, strength hug n hopes and all the light I can Xxxx

barbara12

Oh Cris
I am lost for words, she got the blood so that was good, has for the rest, then something has to be done...its not fair to leave you like this
I do hope the pregabs help....I really do..
Sending buckets full of pain relief...and lots of very gentle hugs (((((())))
Wish I could do more.... :roll:

valval

well done for getting through it all sorry they are not helping much ribs awfull when they playing up arnt they watch out for breathing i end up far to shallow and get bit light headed as well if not carefull. do hope they get you sorted soon val

did not mind about hamper she made good pillow god exchange val

suzygirl

Cris, I wish I and they could do more for you, Words seem so inadequate at times. I have had the costro as well, and it really hurts. With everything you have going on, you do well to be up and about. You have such a marvellous spirit.

Izzy loved her ladyship, they share identity crisis, Izzy thinks she is human!!!! I also fear she helped polish off some of the food. She is licking her lips rather vigourously!!

(((hugs))) and still keeping you in my htoughts x x x

hileena111

Hi Cris
Sorry...not been on much earlier.....They cant leave you like that although they did get blood which is one good thing....I dont know what they can do but surely there must be something....I've neve had ths cost thingey but i have had cracked/bruised/broken ribs over the years and it is awful and Val you said about shallow breathing.....I've always been told by the medics that that brings on pneumonia {spelling} and I must not do that ...must always keep deep breathing no matter how much it hurts....sorry gone of the topic again LOL

Love
Hileena

stickywicket

Skezier, I think you're the only person I've ever met who can reduce me to speechlessness....and so often!

here we go, mate (((( ))))

whalewatcher

Hi Cris
I'm so sorry they are doing so little for you, maybe Pregab300 will do something for the pain.
Hang on in there lovely lady, we're all with you.
Go & hug a sheep. I've just hugged a goat & had what I thought was a deep & meaningful conversation but she could just have been after the apple I had in my pocket!
Love
Val